DaRk LoRd N ExWaRgReYMoN...

2008-12-23T21:29:00.002+08:00

Long time since I've been here, pouring out my thoughts and comments.

I'm glad that I left that cursed organisation. That place that gave me sorrow, hatred, but at the same time, lessons to learn, good friends, and good guides. My boss, my big boss, and my colleagues.. I guess I'll never get this tinge of bitterness off my chest, because up till today, I firmly believe that they made the wrong choice.

Nonetheless, I'm glad that the different path was laid out for me, and I'm very glad that I managed to walk this alternate path. No way am I gonna turn back and look again..

During these few months, I've been through 6 major battles. 1 of which is rather confidential so I wouldn't mention.

- confidential -
-National Education Tour
-F4
-F5
-F9
-Aikido Grading

Everything has managed to settle. Finally.. Well, it would soon be time to collect the rewards, or rather, reap the seeds that I sowed.

Anything, life outside the cursed organisation is super great! =D The thing I realised is that, when u're back in the cursed organisation, you work for someone, who is working for someone, and so on, and things just follow through the procedures only.. like.. u are just doing for the sake of doing. No motivation at all....

But now, I'm doing a lot a lot of work. Busy! But there's motivation, there's satisfaction. =D

This is probably the best point about going through that 2 years. It's not really wasted I must say ba. HAHA.

Nonetheless, christmas's round the corner. Soon New Year. My new year resolutions (in advance):

- Get a scholarship (I will try my best)
- Get my brown-gold belt before end of 2009
- Finish up my ACCA Level 2 before end of 2009

Well, at least for now. =D

Haha, that's all. I'm kind of tired..

The difference between a king and a horse, is not the difference in the number of legs they have. It is the innate ability to fight, to constantly look for battles, to fulfill its bloodthirst conquest...

From,
Kaizer

2008-08-03T23:14:00.001+08:00

品冠&戴佩妮-半生熟

你总是腼腆用幽默语言,
填满我心里的小缺陷.
灌溉满座花园让我住里面,
对你我怎么可能心不在焉.
你总是淘气用微笑双眼,
照亮我生活每个阴天.
编织整片屋檐让我躲里面,
对你我没有抱怨.
我为你泡的咖啡,
额外加了甜.
赶走夜的晕眩,
我为你准备一整年的喜悦,
一步一个脚印让幸福实现.

我喜欢你却又偏偏喜欢我,
零时差的拥有.
点燃温柔让孤单解冻,
小心翼翼享受你害羞逗留.
我喜欢追你却偏偏喜欢躲,
无条件的邂逅.
爱到现在刚好半生熟,
投递着微妙的感动.

2008-07-29T22:20:00.002+08:00

1 ++ more lectora to go. This is getting absurd.

I want to ORD! =X Sigh.. I really hope everything can end soon. Real soon.

2008-06-14T13:28:00.002+08:00

Talking to my boss is great.

After the SQC Assessor Course, I took a hitch ride from him back to Dhoby Ghaut, as he was going to somewhere in the city. I was impressed by the fact that he actually had a lot of things in his mind, on what he wanna do when he ORD, and so on and so for. It was awesome, but everything for him seems very organised.

He advised me on writing down and organising my thoughts, which I found it rather true. I dunno since when, my mind has been in a whirl, and things didn't really improve since last year.

"It took me two years to do that", said my boss.

I'm really grateful to have such a boss like him, I see him as a mentor, because he taught me things that I don't think I will learn when I was a trainee.

What is fear?

Fear = False Evidence Appearing Real

You see, when you fear something, you had already foreseen something bad in your mind, that you may lose your valuable possessions in the process. But so far has this phenomenon come true? No.

What does it indicate?

It indicates that you are thinking of something that may not happen (False Evidence), but it seemed real (Appearing Real) simply because you think of it as a high possibility of occurring, producing the fear within you as a result.

My boss thought me that.

You do not need determination to achieve what you want. Think of the reason of achieving your goals, and that alone can serve as a motivation for you to succeed.

Also from my boss.

I realise I've got lots to learn. As what he said, during these 2 years of NS, do pick up whatever you can learn, and move on. Don't linger around once your time is up, as there're much more opportunities outside. (I was telling him of the possibility of extending my ORD for half a year more like Choon Siong)

I would like to express my gratitude to him. It seems that fate brought me to work under him, and learn from him.

Without the past, there wouldn't be the present. I would like to make use of this present to create my future and prove others wrong.

Thanks boss! =)

2008-06-04T18:37:00.002+08:00

I must say I'm quite busy recently.

Let's start with one month ago, when I took over Choon Siong as the standin SO ID. Till then I understand why he considered signing on for 6 months, even when other people are yearning to ORD soon. Morning check email, sit down type email, canteen, lunch, slack, and go off at 430pm.

Wow. You may think this kind of life happens to me.

Haha.. ok la. Recently our unit's undergoing some certification and my boss and I had to go for some course regarding the certification process (as we are the ones spearheading the whole certification process). I found that really useful as it will really help me when I go work next time. =) But the process is rather tiring.. coordinating timing with all the senior commanders, followed by the middle management, to see who's free and who's not for the in house workshop. There are also times where there're conflicts of instructions... Urgh.

It's only at the start... Haha.

Now let's hope someone takes over SO ID soon, so I can take a breather. =)

But overall, it was rather enjoyable, and satisfying. If only I can find a job like that outside. Haha.. Busy but fulfilling. Well, actually that job scope is only part of what I do over there.. still got more to come=S

Peak period is coming soon. I can sense it.

Aikido grading's coming. And I had to rush for to clock my lessons last week. Damn tiring... Really. Imagine, mon go for lesson at night, tues guard duty, fri go again, then sat hav to go help out the sundown marathon as baggage IC (overnight event) and eventually sunday 2+ hrs of Aikido straight in a row. >.< (with work in my office going on, and studying for my ACCA exams at the same time)

Pretty cool. I'm quite impressed with that actually, but then, if only I can pass my grading then I would really feel a sense of satisfaction =D

Only after 15th June then can I really take a breather.

Haha.. let's see my schedule.

4th June: F3 Exam (just finished!)
6th June: F2 Exam
11th June: F1 Exam
15th June: Aikido grading

1 down. 3 to go. Chiong AH~!!!

From,
James

2008-05-04T23:23:00.003+08:00

Some old songs are always nice. Always worth listening to, again and again. =)

I'm listening to 2 of them now, 一千零一夜 and 你怎么舍得我难过 :

她总是不言不语
黄昏等到天微明
拔弄着怀中那把无弦琴
寂寞里秋来春去
诺言随风都飘零
梦中人还是没捎来一点消息

一千零一夜
没有一夜不思念
每一分想念
化做不成双的蝶

一千零一夜
没有一夜不流泪
流到心里而变成雪
那一夜一场大雨
园里的花落满地
那是他为她种的金钱菊
当有人劝她放弃
她会微笑看着你
手心中紧紧握着发黄的回忆

一千零一夜
没有一夜不思念
每一分想念
化做不成双的蝶

一千零一夜
没有一夜不流泪
流到心里而变成雪
一千零一夜
夜夜看到她思念
究竟谁让她有那么忧郁的脸

一千零一夜
夜夜听到她流泪
不知该怎么去安慰

一千零一夜
没有一夜不思念
每一分想念化做不成双的蝶

一千零一夜
没有一夜不流泪
流到心里而变成雪
一千零一夜
夜夜看到她思念
究竟谁让她有那么忧郁的脸

一千零一夜
夜夜听到她流泪
不知该怎么去安慰
是真心都疼真心
让我就从今夜起
在身边为她轻唱温暖的旋律

--------------------------------------------------------

对你的思念

是一天又一天

孤单的我

还是没有改变

美丽的梦

何时才能出现

亲爱的你

好想再见你一面

秋天的风

一阵阵的吹过

想起了去年的这个时候

你的心到底在想些什么

为什么留下

这个结局让我承受

最爱你的人是我

你怎么舍得我难过

在我最需要你的时候

没有说一句话就走

最爱你的人是我

你怎么舍得我难过

对你付出了这么多

你却没有感动过

Really nice songs.. =D

2008-05-01T15:17:00.004+08:00

Today's labour day. Cousin just went to my hse for tuition.

Hmm, come to think of it, I'm rather guilty about the fact that I flared up for my cousin's lack of concentration during tuition time. He's tired and really wanted to pass his A-maths test, and I'm there to dampen his spirit by telling him off. (Though he copied his qns wrongly occasionally, and also playing with his handphone while studying.)

I'm getting rather short-tempered recently. But at the same time, I think my level of tolerance is increasing, especially at camp.

You see, I've recently taken over my beloved AJ senior, who is going to ORD tomoro. As such, there were quite a lot of workload, and somehow I couldn't find the documents he claimed to have passed me.

So I went down to SIL to get the relevant stuff, and there is this guy working in the lab questioning me is it that I misplaced the documents, I denied flatly. (Which was obviously the fact, cos I really couldn't find them in the thumbdrive) And then, he ranted and ranted and ranted, saying something like, "Everytime documents come to you sure get lost one.. blah blah blah."

I didn't listen properly. Obviously I was pissed off with his comments, and ignored him. And he continued. Too bad Junhong wasn't around, if not we will have fun imitating him. =D

Anyway, things are getting rather fun in my new office. Boss, me and vincent. Boss's often not around, and even if he's around, he's the type who knows how to relax at the right time. =D A lot of things are coming in, but I don't really feel stressed. =D

A recent spate of happenings just made me ponder, about my future and what I'm going to do when I ORD in 190+ days, and before I go study. (neither too long nor short) My aunt wanted to help me in getting an internship in one of the petrochemical companies in Jurong Island, but somehow her relative quitted quite recently, for a better workplace. This leaves me quite disappointed, as it's really my wish to working with petrochem companies, as an engineer.

This incident actually highlighted the fact that, nothing is certain. And plans that you once worked out, may or may not be implemented, as in the end, it is the changes in the current situation that depends the process and results. Being flexible is the only solution. =/

Another option, being that I'll be working under my uncle as an assistant accountant, but I haven't talked to my uncle about it yet. Hopefully... (fingers crossed)

One option is to be a relief teacher + giving tuitions. That sure takes a lot of patience though. But from a monetary view, the rewards are certainly more enticing than the former options.

Alright. Enough of ranting. Exams's coming. Got to study le. >.<

From,
Kaiser

2008-04-30T22:13:00.002+08:00

Thinking of what to blog now. (Tot i had something to blog.. Really suspect of having short-term memory loss. This is bad.)

Aww well, nothing much anyway. Work's gotten more taxing, but more enjoyable. More like office work le. Exam's coming. I can't slack too much too. =S Got to study in work too le.

Damn. Often or not you would find that the amount of effort you put in does not equate to the possibility of achieving that thing you really want for.

From,
Kaiser

2008-03-27T18:08:00.002+08:00

Today is a rather memorable day.

2 friends bade goodbye to me through phone call. Well, it's rather sad to see them leave, but good la. At least they got 1 yr and 2mths left to ORD. =D

Good luck Aston, and get commissioned ah! Remember the things I told u before... And wear the apulette I bought for you ah!
Good luck Wentat! Hahah.. dun really noe what to say, but still, thanks for the fun, laughter, 'peace' and joy!

Wondering if you all will read this anot lol...

I guessed I learnt a lot over at SIL. People come and go, and friendship are made, just like that. It's happy to have more family members, and sad cos you see them get posted out just like that. If I were to be in some other place, probably things would be very different. It may be a blessing in disguise after all. =S

Well, 7 + months to ORD. Can't wait. The waiting's getting exponentially long le.

2008-03-25T22:07:00.002+08:00

My Life
一直在等待
空荡的口袋
想在里面放一份爱

Why 总是被打败
真的好无奈
其实我实实在在不管帅不帅

想要找回来
自己的节拍
所以这一次
我要勇敢大声说出来

期待期待你发现我的爱
无所不在
我自然而然的关怀

你的存在心灵感应的方向我一眼就看出来
是因为爱

我猜你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯越靠近越明白
不要走开
幸福的开始
就是放手去爱

所不在我自然而然的关怀
你的存在心灵感应的方向我一眼就看出来
是因为爱我猜你早已发现我的爱绕几个弯
越靠近越明白
不要走开幸福的开始
就是放手去爱

I SIMPLY LOVE THIS SONG! SWEET =D

Anyway, long time nv really put my effort to blog le... (When did I really put in effort to blog anw?) haha.. Anyway started pushing my efforts to reach my goals, applying for scholarships. So far only ST replied, went for first interview... Screwed up quite a bit. Dun think they will call again... (though this is only 1st week, they say within 2 weeks) Haha...

Applied for double degree too. This time I submitted discretionary documents to increase my chances.. Heh not so stupid now. If they don't accept me, then I really don't know what to say, probably, " This is fate, making fun of me, even 2007 has flown past le." Blaming is of no use.

I'm feeling that I'm getting more succumbed to the chains of fate. Or should I let myself be chained? Do I have a choice? I really don't know.. I always thought I had the chance, until the events in 2007 hit me rather hard, and I'm still recovering.

Nonetheless, I still believe that hard work will bring success eventually. My goals! Here I come! =) I'm not gonna let go any of the opportunities if I were to get hold of anyone of them. =D

From,
Kaiser

2008-02-28T21:03:00.003+08:00

I just submitted my essay to Miss Goh. Hopefully she can help me in editing. If not, I guess I have to do it alone, with her permission though. Let's see.. 3 more weeks to go, ample time I guess ba. Haha... Hopefully I can make it, pls.

"Beneath my hollow smile is a face that is soaked with tears of sadness and hatred...
Beneath that body of a vizard is a soul that has been through mental torture and agony.

I am a vizard, whom none can really understand the pain.. The pain of not knowing the name of the sword within my heart. Without it, I can never summon it from the depths of my bleeding heart, stopping its pain by extracting the sword.

It's time to stop it. It's time for me to learn bankai.

I want to be stronger... I know I have reached a new level. But that's not enough. I want recognition and I know I deserve more...

The hunger for power, the hunger for battle.

It's time to end all this. Let's go. Bankai!"

I don't wanna hide anymore... It's time to end all this. I want to face up the reality, and fight against the odds. I will show to those who looked down on me that I can and I will succeed. I shall once again summon the courage and determination that went down with me sometime ago. No, I shall summon more than what I can offer...

A fight for pride. A fight for victory. There's no room to lose. I can't afford to lose anymore.

A fight for myself, and myself. I shall succeed, and I will.

2008-02-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

像两首节拍不同的歌却又同时被爱情合奏旋律勉强着
愉快不能够假装快乐你心中有宽阔的天空但空气好稀薄　

曾经以为等待会改变什么你总会属于我　
但是最后时间证明了你只喜欢我

你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容　
谁在乎我的心
还会不会寂寞

如果爱情是五线谱
我曾希望用全音符吟唱出爱上你那完整的幸福
但你的心没有耳朵即使我为你唱着歌你也只看见我哭了　

你说过我是你最好的朋友
却不应该再拥抱着　
你退缩你冷漠
于是我放开双手
不在乎我的心
会永远的寂寞...

For this friend of mine. Poor him... I can't do anything to help him. This sucks.
Anyway I've got more things to worry about... (i.e. my financial accounting) Damn, the greatest crisis this year.

Have to overcome, have to, have to... AHHHHH!!!

2008-01-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

Well, chinese new year's coming soon. Hmm, not much of an excitement.. I dun really know why. Maybe its because 2007 has been a year of ups and downs for me, and somehow I'm really numbed to nothingness.. I've nothing much to look forward to. Just hope that everything goes according to what I had always wished and planned for. Competition is keen, but I really hope I can do it.. Pls help me.

At least get a NUS study award so that I can study without financial worries ba. =S

Recently got this linux simulation thingy that we are gonna try out. Rather cool I must say.. cos u get to play with placing infinite amount of ditches, minefields, or even placing them on the 2nd link (even if its not possible lol.) And moving ur troops to attack, suppress fire etc...

Haha.. is that the 3G technology we've been waiting for? Lol.

I'm feeling peaceful, at the same time frustrated. What the hell am I here for? I really really want to study right now.. in NUS, and joining sch activities where I can really enjoy myself, and I abhor the fact that I still got 9+ agonising months to ORD. At the same time, I sort of enjoy the serenity of booking out everyday, and twice-in-a-month guard duty, when I can talk cock sing song with my fellow rp friends.

I wonder what will it become when kong ORD, weijian ORD, Amresh ORD, Francis and Samuel ORD, and the rps too... and the list goes on. Life will totally be different. Or rather... empty? By then I would prob hav 5 months more to go.

Currently enjoying my ACCA course btw. (Though financial accounting has been giving me significant trouble, that I have to scratch and groan whether I see the credit debit thingy.) Lol. I really hope that I can pass with flying colours. Theory is important, so is practical. Hope to learn a rope or two from MWO LL and my uncle when I ORD.Really hope to finish my course asap. =D

But seriously speaking, all that economics and management theory makes me want to learn more. It's all common sense, and yet at the same time new to me. Lol.

I think I'm too good in terms of character. I probably wun get angry for the rest of my life (as in real pissed and infuriated) Maybe I would say its good. Or is it bad? Haha.. Good ba. Finally learnt how to take things in my stride. But nonetheless, I would still prove to myself, and to them, that I can, and will be, successful in my life, according to my definition. I saw that guy recently, cos he went for plant course. Using com lab, and said hi to me wth the usual Gin Ichimaru smile. I didn't really smile back, cos I was too tired to wear my mask in front of him. But still, he greeted me with that smile when we met again on my way back to my bunk. Nah... Society's full of such ppl, one more wouldn't make a difference. I just need more time to master the skill of handling them once and for all.

If you can't fight them, make use of their advantage and work with them =)

Informal relationships are important, and the skill that I'm gonna master. =D

2008-01-01T00:05:00.000+08:00

-asato ma sad gamaya
tamaso ma jyotir gamaya
mrutyor ma amrtam gamaya-

Translation:

From delusion lead me to truth.

From darkness lead me to light.

From death lead me to immortality.

Wow, I simply love the song to bits =D

Anyway, went ACM with xm, weiqi and yy today. Lol.. I must say abit weird of a combi, but well all went well! =D Went to eat lunch with xm at this fish & chips restaurant.. ok la. Chips abit soggy though. Rather cheap =) and then yy came. Waited and waited lol... sigh.

After that went ACM to look at the artefacts. Quite cool I must say.. especially the hydraulic lift >.< Quite slow though.

Eh, met up with ks and rox after which to hav dinner at Thai Express. (They went kbox before tt) Yupz. That's all for my new year eve programme. Sigh.. tot got mahjong to play... turn out that there's nothing much to expect. Aw well... =/

Quite fun today though =D

New year resolution very simple:

learn and master the art of fighting back =)

2007-12-28T21:49:00.000+08:00

Things just got a little more interesting in camp =)

Well, let's see how it goes. And I don't really feel anything much anymore. I've got nothing much to lose, neither do I care about whatever will happen to me if I were to retaliate. =D So be it. Give me your best shot, and I will give mine.

I realised that I've changed some more during these past few months. In the past, when I was still in training, I realised that I was a person who is happy with anything, and even if things were against me, I would never fight back, naively thinking that sheer determination will put me through.

Ha. It's all bullshit. But now? At least I gain some experience from this 1 year. I've grown stronger, not only physically, but mentally too. I also learnt to be braver, and more hardy. No one can ever think that I'm some person who is easily bullied. No one. Ever and ever...

2007-12-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

Kbox with jiahui and crystal. Went jiahui's hse for extended kbox lol =D Quite fun I must say. Got rather high due to singing. Hehe... It's really enjoyable, and i really hope to hav such an occasion again. =) Plays really well I must say!

Guard duty on xmas. Abit sianx.. but got rather fun eventually. There's this corporal from SMTI who was surfing this website to get to know indian girls... (his name was roshan >.< not the DOTA one) and some of us chipped in suggestions on how to get the girls' contact no. (yes, including me, though I had to do my duty with Thomas heh)

That day each of us got $7 extra( for ordering food, i.e. pizza, Macs etc.) so me and thomas ordered pizza and shared it among the camp personnel. Cool... =D Somehow this xmas's rather special...

Brought some magz to read, but eventually went to watch Bourne Ultimatium and Shrek 3. Hahaha...

That's y doing guard duty is sometimes an enjoyable thing. =) Although BHChua toks alot crap and sidetrack a great deal. Sigh... It's real hard to keep awake while 'listening' to him talking about the importance of doing gd duty.. YAWN...

Stupid shit. Do duty do duty lor. Talk soooo much for wad? As if u do a good job for this will get promote. =)

Watched deal or no deal just now. There's this guy who got a $36,000 offer to get rid of the box (no.15) with only $150, $750 and $150k available. And he rejected the offer. What he got? $150.

Stupid. I got quite fed up that I turned to my com and played warbook. -.-'

2007-12-01T18:43:00.000+08:00

I just realised that I haven't been blogging for a long long while. (as in serious blogging.)

Alot of things happened these few months. I was once brought to the top of my 'career', and gradually dragged to nothing. Everything just happened real fast... and before you know it, you realise that you are not joining the rest and you are in a no man's land, together with some, who suffered the same fate as me.

But, no. I'm not going to hide in one corner and cry like a little kid. No way I'm gonna accept my fate, and the verdict. That I'm a weakling under stress... Still remembered only yesterday when some of us were supposed to help out in IPPT test for regulars. I saw some of my instructors who were involved in the test. One fell out during 2.4km run. He even vomitted.. All show the tired face that which if we showed during our old training days, they themselves will screw us upside down. Timing for them's really slow...

I couldn't help but sneer at them deep down in my heart. Are they the very same instructors that shouted at us "DON'T SHOW THAT SHAGGED FACE TO ME!"? Hahahaha...

Sorry about tt, but you guys are despised. Not fit at all.. aww.

Can't believe what I saw. But still.. wahahaha. Can't help but to laugh whenever I think of what happened that day. Losers... I also learnt something throughout the whole experience. Determination and fighting spirit won't bring you through. It's all bullshit.. But still I'm not gonna give up anytime soon. I'm just lack the quality of being streetsmart. I learnt it finally. The hard way..

I admit I'm not really qualifed. But the thing is that some who are not as qualified, or even worse off, get to pass and graduate scot-free, I must say.

That day, at 15 1741, I do hope that it rains. Heavily.

I admire those who braved through the whole damn shit together with me. I salute them.. In fact, they deserve it more than those ppl do. Joshua.. Kannan... They sacrificed. But their fighting spirit remains on throughout, as far as I know.

Anyway, back to something more cheerful.

I'm going for the ACCA course. Basically it's a accountancy course, in which once you complete, you will become a certified public accountant. =D It will take around 2-3 years to do so, but it will be worth it. I do hope I can get a 8-5 vocation though.. One more week before I get to know my new posting. I'm also going for Aikido course too! Heh, that will be exciting I would say, but still deciding where's the venue, cos all seemed so far from where my place is... =S (though most are quite accessible)

I can't wait to go uni though! =D (I'm very sure most of the girls won't agree right now, especially the fact that they are coping with the ongoing exams right NOW) Being able to study and back to freedom.. And also joining different CCAs and sports activities (provided that you have enough time...) Cool!

I can't wait to get out soon... Still got slightly less than a year to go. But that one year seems real long... Urgh. Anyway currently I'm 'posted' to this com lab where the ppl there are real nice.. joking too! Haha... LC was telling me when I first got there, "This is when the real thing starts. =)" It now makes real sense to me.

But initially when I got there I got a culture shock. Everything seemed so slack, too slack for me. Even the officers are joking and playing with us every now and then. (Probably beacause I was in the discipline-mode during the 11 months =S) Anyway I got a new pet in where I am now. =D

This pikachu soft toy. Haha.. can't help but put it on top of my monitor whenever I'm doing my typing. =)) (Poor thing, sometimes being kicked around by them every now and then lol)

The end has come. And every ending has a new beginning in place for you. And how the path is shaped depends on your every single decision.

2007-11-23T15:00:00.000+08:00

Damn I know I'm lagg.. but then "the secret" movie's really nice! =D

Rather touching... hmm, worth watching it again and again! =)))

Alright, that's all for today.. Things are gonna happen soon, real fast. It's gonna be 2008 soon, which means new resolution! =D

2007-11-18T21:30:00.001+08:00

It's been a good long 11 plus months serving my duty as a CS. I would say the first 7 months were the most memorable experience I've ever had. =D

Shit came after which... and I endured. No matter how smelly I am, I told myself, I had to survive, as there's something I had to look forward to.

However, things aren't that expected as it was supposed to be. I would say it's because partly I'm suay to be in this sector of the organisation. Never will I put that into my choice, and there it came right in front of me, stating that I'm stuck in this sector for the rest of my cycle.

So be it. It's now over. I have given up hope in this whole system. I have already vowed to work hard, get my double degree and scholarship (if possible), and start afresh. When I become successful, I would visit the graves of those who foresee and played major roles in my failure, and spit in front of them.

I would never forget their faces. Never.

Indeed, I learnt alot from them, both good and bad. My dad was right... Being too nice will cause harm to myself instead. =)

2007-06-30T10:08:00.000+08:00

Was talking to Ching Liang, Weeleng, and Jingguo yesterday.

Ching Liang kenna Air Defence Operations if I'm not wrong. Rather siong cos he needs to carry mistral. (Not mistress! =P)
Weeleng 3rd Guards. But he already OOT cos of his fractured hand. Lol. Now resting at home till early august...
Jingguo V200 driver. Getting class 4 and 3 license! (Shiok!)
Me? (Refer to previous entry...)

"Maybe we could set up a construction company. ChingLiang and Weeleng carry all the stuff, I bulldoze, Jingguo drives. =)"

That may sound good after all, if all of us can't find jobs... =)

2007-06-24T14:02:00.000+08:00

Feel like talking about social nite today.. Lol. =)

It's a rather memorable experience for me, since it's ^(infinitely) more fun than the prom nite I had last year, which I regard as a TOTAL failure on the organisers' part. Haha, anyway went to pines at ard 1530 to get all the gifts done, and also to discuss on some of the details for the games. Nothing much after which, mainly doing fatigue work etc. etc.

"Damn, forgot the time le. Needa go home and change and fetch wenting. Hahahha... Alright." Here I go. Took taxi home, which costed 7 bucks -_- Met up with wenting at the amk hub taxi stand, and here we go, to pines. Lol...

The food is nice. The programme is nice. And the prizes must be nice too rite? =P (Note: I chose most of the prizes for the games. Hehehe...) The emcees were great too! (Kudos to Hazmi and Yam, which's the best pair I've ever seen. =D) There were joy and laughter. =)

Colin proposed to his girlfriend that day. Lol.. Damn touching.

"I know the road ahead for us isn't gonna be easy, but I could hug you when you feel tired, wet your lips when you are thirsty, and wipe your face when you cry." -LTA Colin-

Ahha... that could add on to my collection of quotes for my army journal. Hehehe... Back on a serious note, it was really touching, and of course she finally agreed. And all of us cheered! =)Yongliang sang Ge Qian by Jay Chou during social nite. Manx.. my favourite song. Hehhe... Kiss Goodbye too. Weinian rocks too! Hahaha.

Well, everything ended and we took photos! =) Send me photos k? I will seriously miss those days we had. "Once in our lives, 2 years of our time..." Had to pack everything up after the whole event though, which kept wenting waiting. (Felt rather bad about it.. though she told me she didn't mind. =S)

Ended rather late, ard 12 plus. But it was nevertheless a good day.

(Note: btw you look rather stunning that day. =P Hahaha... I do hope something will happen between you and him that nite though. -wink- kk, juz kidding.)

2007-06-23T20:49:00.000+08:00

Ranks in order of superiority:
Officers (军官类)

上将 (General)
中将（Lieutenant General）
少将（Major General）
准将（Brigadier General）
上校（Colonel）
中校（Lieutenant-Colonel）
少校（Major）
上尉（Captain）
中尉（Lieutenant）
少尉（Second Lieutenant）

Warrant Officers (准尉类)
高级准尉长（Senior Warrant Officer）
准尉长（Master Warrant Officer）
一级准尉（First Warrant Officer）
二级准尉（Second Warrant Officer）

Specialists (士官类)
军士长（Master Sergeant）
上士长（Staff Sergeant）
一级上士（First Sergeant）
二级上士（Second Sergeant）
三级上士（Third Sergeant）

Soldiers (士兵类)
中士（Corporal）
下士（Lance Corporal）
一等兵（Private First Class）
士兵（Private）
新兵（Recruit)

Koped from bloggercl. Hehe...

2007-06-23T14:50:00.000+08:00

JJ's new album is out~ Haha, nothing much. Except that one of his songs are really awesome! =)))

林俊杰 <<杀手>>

绝对的完美一双手
不流汗也不发抖
交叉在微笑的背后
暗藏危险的轮廓
在你最放松的时候
绝不带着任何感情就下手
从来不回头
开始的感觉不会痛不会痛
放大的瞳孔就像作梦
幸福的错觉很温暖
很包容也许还期待
这是致命的冲动
你不懂我不懂
究竟杀手为什么存在
因为爱还是未知的未来
心情放松摇摆

music☆~~
心放松摇摆
身体直摇摆
在你三百米之外
数着心跳等待
所有念头全抛开
锁起来进来这美丽的悲哀
这是爱就是爱
全世界都不明白
感觉饥饿难耐
需要你填满空白
锁进来进来这美丽的悲哀
这是爱就是爱
只有你明白
☆end☆~~

2007-06-21T21:59:00.000+08:00

Back from camp.

I just realised that I haven't been updating my army journal entries faithfully. Aww well, hmm, I should. Cos there are things which is worth being kept deep in my heart. Alas, 2 more days to the 14th week of service term, and from there, some will go support arms, some going for scholarship stuff, and some medicine. New people are coming in though...

Our platoon's gonna disbanded. This is because almost all of our instructors are leaving, either ORD (like LTA Colin) or posted elsewhere. (Manx, LTA Delson's a good instructor, hope to see him someday when he gets posted.) Bitter-sweet memories... =)

But still, training is still physically wrecking. Damn.. this week is rather hiong.

First day: 7km endurance training run (Ok, fine.. I suppose I can take it, under 35 mins?!?!)

Second day: 8km endurance training run (Ok, heng ah, under 48 mins, brisk walk still can reach ending within time limit. Legs start to ache le... =S)

Third day: Admin time (Nights out to play CS at Jurong Point... =) with YL tan, Kaisiong, Chorseng, Bowen, Samuel and Chunhong)

Fourth day: 6km fast march without stopping (Oh wat $%$$#^&**, it's not about marching eventually as we continued. From fast marching, to very fast marching, and eventually, jogging. -_-")

I survived this week. Thank goodness. Our WSM was giving out extras like phamplets. So basically, guard duties and CDOCDS duties are WELL taken care of.

My legs are still aching though... =/

Alright, dun tok about army le. Well, back to uni application. I suppose I will be rejected the umpteenth time regarding my appeal for a double degree course. Competition is keen, so I suppose I could try next year, but I dunno whether this will deprive me of my place in USP. Oh well, if only USP is a scholarship package itself, that will be good. At least I can study without using my own money. =)

Manx... still feeling a bit sianx though. Maybe the dragon year has proven to be too much for me. Urgh.. I dun like it. But aww well, it's not up to your choice.

Tired.. Going sleep soon. ZzZzZz...

2007-06-04T20:10:00.001+08:00

Platoon Field Camp was probably the most tiring, out of the 3 field camps I had during my service term. In fact, it was the field camp that I was the most comprehensive about. Basically, the field camp consists of 2 exercises, i.e. Exercise Scorpionking, and Exercise Spade. In BMTC, I actually spent 5 hours to dig my shellscrape, due to my poor digging skills, and the quality of the soil. Exercise Spade will be a challenge for me, since we had to dig one shellscape, and one trench (which is an enlarged shellscape, of chest level) As comprehensive as I was, I decided that nothing will stop my way though, since I am able to survive for the previous field camps, as some of my friends said were the more tiring ones.

Day 1 was merely rehearsals, namely the platoon harbouring drills, and tactical movement during platoon missions. We actually learnt the various ways of crossing danger areas in a platoon, and also how to deal with situations when we are contacted by enemies from various directions. We also learn how to analyse such situations, such as the size of the enemies, so that we can make informed choices and minimize the number of casualties on our side, and at the same time, ensuring the success of our missions. Lastly, we also learnt the roles of a Platoon Commander and a Platoon Sergeant, and examine their roles in a closer perspective. Basically, a PS job is not as simple as it seems, as it really involves a considerable amount of stamina and physique, and also the ability to cope stress in difficult situations. However, the latter criteria applies more for a PC, and basically as officers-to-be and PCs to be, it is very crucial for us to handle stress in such situations. Well, basically talk is cheap, and only through experience, and more experience, we are then able to improve and transform to become better PCs, in leading our men to complete the missions.

Day 2 was the commencement of Exercise Scorpionking. It was a tough one, as we had to march from the training shed near Mandai Road, to the .85 knoll and execute our deliberate attack missions. Furthermore, we will not be walking tactically along Asrama axis, instead we will be skirting and bashing into the jungle, in Full-Battle Order. This makes the whole trekking rather exciting. It was rather tiring physically and mentally, especially for the point PC. This is because he is mainly responsible in leading one company of soldiers in the jungle, and one wrong decision in his navigation may demoralize his troops, since they are lost. Furthermore, we learnt the importance of following the given timings, as fulfilling the timings are not as easily as it seemed. Basically, we managed to reach our FUPs, and subsequently, executed our platoon deliberate attacks up the knoll, and hence completing our missions, as we occupy the knoll area, and doing our re-org.

Here comes the digging part, Exercise Spade.

Basically, each of us is supposed to dig one shellscape in 45 minutes. The main purpose is to ensure us a basic temporary shelter when there is an unexpected artillery bombardment, reducing unnecessary casualties to the minimum. Furthermore, 2 people have to dig one trench within one night. Basically, we were digging continuously, and there is hardly time for us to rest. However, we were heartened by CPT Seah, who actually took the effort to bring us red-bulls, which perked us up, for more digging. After which, we learnt how to construct a FOPK. FOPK is actually a enhanced form of shelter, consisting wooden poles, groundsheets, and sandbags we made overnight while digging. This is to further protect us from artillery bombardment, while we are hiding in the trenches. We had our defence night missions on Day 3. I am deeply impressed by LTA Kelvin, who did a sneak attack on us from the top of the knoll, and ‘killing’ everyone eventually. His swift and rather silent movement is what we should learn when we execute our exercises and missions, so as to prevent notifying the enemies of our presence.

Basically, I learnt that the roles of a PC is rather challenging, as it really involves the responsibility of not only yourself, but also your troops. However, with the skills we acquired during Platoon Field Camp, it actually laid a foundation on the subsequent new knowledge we will obtain, as we proceed on to professional term next month, and subsequently, to be an officer after commissioning.

2007-05-12T18:58:00.000+08:00

"Patrol field camp was a refreshing and new experience for me, in fact, probably for most of us, as this was be the first time we would be having outfield activities in Marsiling. Well, there will always be a sense of anticipation and nervousness amongst us, not knowing really what to expect, even though the details were briefed to us earlier on before the actual event. Stories that circulated among instructors and some senior cadets eventually reached our ears, in which they mentioned about the severe lack of sleep during the field camp. I was rather worried as I was already tired due to the hectic schedule back in the wingline, and I did not get much sleep even when I book out. Well, whatever will come, will come. With this mentality of mine, I proceeded on for the 3-day-2-night field camp.

Day 1 was merely navigation, consisting of 2 parts, day and night. What makes this navigation really interesting is the fact that we would be using air photos. This was our first time and experience exploring the Marsiling-Mandai region using air photos. It was not really a pleasant, but nevertheless, enriching experience as we mislocated our checkpoints, but eventually found all of them along the way, completing the course. The lesson I have learnt is that never to underestimate the air photos. Basically, we copied the grids from the map and ‘pasted’ it on the air photo, thinking that nothing will go wrong using this method. However, we were mistaken, as we proceeded on and eventually, bashing aimlessly through the forest finding the correct checkpoint, which in fact, we have encountered earlier on.

Anyway, I did not realise there are still places in Singapore where you can really get good scenery until the patrol field camp. During our day navigation, we could see a bird-eye view of the Singapore Turf Club, and also the row of flats and neighbourhood facilities in Marsiling, especially on a 60-metre hilltop. The feeling was especially exhilarating, once you reached the hilltop, with such picturesque scenery welcoming your arrival. What more can you ask for?

Day 2 and 3 were subsequently missions. Basically, there were 3 day missions and a night mission. We managed to learn the SOP in giving out operational orders in a section, and I realised that even though most of us might not be signing on as NS regulars, such skills are also very applicable and useful outside in the workforce, especially when you are tasked to plan and execute a certain project. Section operation orders are really in sequence and well-designed such that it ensures every single soldier understands what mission he has been given and what is he supposed to execute to ensure his job is done successfully.

Anyway, the ambush missions were rather interesting, especially when you had to be in a proning position to wait for your ‘prey’ to be in the danger area, and seize the chance to attack and kill your target. It may seem easy, but the waiting process is certainly painful, especially when you lack sleep. Every single moment you will be fighting the z-monster, i.e. trying not to doze off. This is extremely important, especially in real-life war time, as if the enemy passes by while you are sleeping, you could be in danger if he spots you before you do so. And also, by letting the enemy pass by will allow him indirectly to information deemed useful to him, eventually resulting in us being in a disadvantageous situation.

After which we did our reconnaissance patrols. We learnt how to be tactical and avoid danger areas if possible. Again, as an officer-to-be and a soldier, such a skill is extremely essential, especially in times of war.

In overall, the patrol field camp is an enriching and fruitful experience to me."

2007-04-30T22:16:00.000+08:00

Cracked my brain, squeezed it until its dry. Still can't figure it a single shit on wad the hell is that military symbol all about. Grr... Doing the military symbol assignments given to us now. Book out also must torture us liddat. Grr... kk. Anyway, I gave up, and went to do my reflection, which I find it qutie interesting. =)

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One week of Section Field Camp is a grueling one, but definitely rewarding. As an officer-to-be, this also means another chapter in 67/07 OCC, as we proceed on to be better leaders. In this reflection, I would like to mention about the experiences and lessons learnt during the field camp.

Day 1 was certainly a day of low morale, with comprehensive thoughts about the uncertainty that lies ahead of us. To some of us, if not most, this 1-week field camp is the longest, probably the toughest one, since as officers-to-be, expectations of us have to be high. I was involved in the advanced team, in which we have to wake up earlier to set up the campsite and draw the equipments required for the subsequent trainings at the campsite. I woke up unwillingly, trying to catch a little bit more of sleep every now and then, as I changed to my FBO. We had our field pack inspection after that, and then proceeded to the Changi Ferry Terminal, where we stopped to have our breakfast. Meanwhile, field packs were loaded to the 5-tonners, which were to be sent to the opposite shore, Pulau Tekong.

Some of us went on to accompany LTA Colin to draw out the ammunition required for that day. As we went to the ammo storehouse, we saw personnel stationed at the storehouse, and I still remember what LTA Colin told us before we set off with our ammo on the 5-tonner, as we commented on the logistic staff.

“Look at them; do you want to be like them, idling around doing nothing, most of the time? Maybe some of you all will think that this is relaxing, but if that is the mentality you have, the 2 years of NS will probably be a waste of time. Make good use of it, and learn something out of it.”

It was probably a simple dialogue session, but certainly a one to remember.

Exercise Greensleeves on that day. We were simply demoralised by the fact that we could not even find a single night checkpoint. While marching on our way back to the ending point dejected, my buddy was struggling to keep up, and CPT Seah had to ask him to march at the front, so as not to lag behind the whole group. During our AAR, he was wondering whether if he could survive the whole field camp.

I felt a tinge of guilt. I did not help him. I could not help him either. What can I do?

Day 2 mainly consist of Exercise Tenderfoot, another navigation exercise, without blind maps this time. We did lose a little bit of confidence, but not all. We tried, and this time, encouraged each other on when we were on the verge of losing our way, especially at night, when everyone was involved in discussing on the route. Alas, we completed everything, on time, and successfully.

The worst had yet to come. Exercise Wildboar. What should and must we expect?

Day 3 was simply brushing up on what we learnt during BMT, i.e. section fire movement, and drills to deal with enemies. It was rather fun, although Hazmi lost and eventually found his smoke grenade safety pin.

Day 4 is the commencement of Exercise Wildboar. That was the time when I volunteered as the section IC, and I screwed it up, due to my lack of confidence. I was simply dejected, and apologised to my section mates for my indecisiveness and stupidity, which thankfully none blamed me. Day 4 was all about practicing fire movement drills again and again, and I marched back to our campsite with the rest of the section, feeling really down. At that point, I really doubted the fact that I was in OCS, until CPT Seah came beside me and talked to me.

He said that he could sense that I want to be strong, and I will eventually. Meanwhile, I should be more confident, if not, show that I have the confidence, even though deep inside, it may not seem so. That may not seem much, but deep inside, I suddenly had the feeling that he believed in me. Thank you very much.

Day 5 and 6 was the continuation of Exercise Wildboar. I took every session seriously, and tried to learn from my mistakes, making sure that I do not repeat them again. During these few days, we heard stories about people losing CE items, which I found rather sad, as they had to pay a price for that. Who would want to get confined, when our weekends are already burnt to only merely 2 or 3 book-outs?

Anyway, there were also defining moments during the field camp too. We had to transport our ‘casualty’ for 4km, with the help of CPT Seah. Tiring as we were, we managed to complete with a sense of achievement and pride. We dug canals and ‘reservoirs’ to drain rainwater away from our already flooded bashas. The whole process was wet and tiring, but fun, as a lot of my platoon mates were involved, and we did it, thanks to Mark, who dug a canal to drain out the water, and we simply connect big puddles of water there. After which, we went to cook maggi noodles for dinner, where we had our platoon bonding session!

Overall, section field camp is a memorable event.

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I was really inspired by CPT Seah. Serious... he is probably the few officers that really kept his promise to the fullest. He mentioned that he will do the same punishment he meted out on us. We kenna leopard crawl in the mud during field camp. He did the same thing the next day, and also to show us how to do leopard crawl. As shocked as I was to see him doing that, I was totally inspired by his professionalism. He never used vulgarities on us, and hardly scolds us.

To me, he's not a sir to me. He is a mentor, someone to look up to.

-Salutes-

Yes, I'm trying to be a Guards officer. All thanks to him.

Thank you CPT Seah.

2007-03-25T12:17:00.000+08:00

Hmm. Why hav I become so not confident in myself?

I dun remember being liddat when I took up the advanced placement programme in NUS, knowing that I had to cope with my module, my schoolwork, and the consistent sarcasm of my beloved fmB teacher =) I remembered failing to do his mech tutorials, and failing every single little test given, or maybe borderline pass. Or even stoning in his class and kenna sarca & threatened by him.. that he will talk to the principal to terminate my APP.

I remembered I was swearing under my breath when he said that. I will never sacrifice my love for chemistry, in order to salvage my fmaths. Never.

I persisted. I got A- for my module. I got A for fmaths during A levels.

Now? I kenna OCS, and I'm having thoughts that I'll get kicked out?

Haha, where on earth did my courage and determination go???

Did I think of that when I was rushing lab assignments for NUS till midnight, knowing that I will be damn tired the next day when I go school? Or when I had to skip lessons in order to attend lectures and lab sessions?

My answer was clear. No.

Now y?

I thought it over. The path ahead is full of uncertainty. But no matter what, I'm not going to give up that easily. Even with that persistent chronic cough I'm currently having now. My aunt is correct. Not many hav the chance like me, and here am I thinking of giving up. My uncle got into OCS, and he got the sword.

Y can't I when I haven't even tried? The pressure is there, but is it alot compared to the times during APP? I can guarantee... not much difference.

So why the hell should I think of giving up? I should aim for the best instead. Who cares who's my competitor? I will fight all my way through. At least I know I hav a considerable chance to succeed if I persist.

Here I go, OCS. =D

2007-03-24T11:00:00.000+08:00

It was really unexpected. I missed 24km route march, SOC, and grenade throwing test. I don't think I was very enthusiastic in my platoon, cos I dun like wayang-ing. My SIT test was a little screwed up because I wrote some stupid ideas in the assignment (on coming up with an idea to save hostage =S)

Plus point? I got silver for IPPT (not really a plus point) and that's all.

I was very surprised and happy when I saw the posting results yesterday.

OCS. =D

I'm currently coughing now, though the condition has improved.

Hmm, since I'm meant for this path, then I will walk this path till its very end.

I dun wanna say I'm giving up now... I will hold on. =)

2007-03-21T12:18:00.000+08:00

First scholarship interview, with IE via firefly.

Screwed it up. Lol. I wasn't really disappointed. Well, at least it is an experience for me. Lol. Not as bad as I think, cos it was like one-to-one. But the questions that actually stunned me were something like, "talk about a scenario when u actually thought of something creative." >.<, or "Singapore expects that there will be 1M singaporeans aged 65 yrs and abv in 2015, discuss its impact to Singapore's economy."

HAHAHA... That's damn ss la. Sigh. Nvm...

So this is how it goes. Well, went Paya Lebar to hav my med checkup. Had my pneumonia condition cleared. Still feeling a bit urgh. =S But all cleared! =) However, waiting time is abit the long. (Well, waited 20 mins for nth. >.<) Haha... Now back. Probably go catch some sleep lol. Woke up too early today. ZzZzZz...

From,
Kaiser

2007-03-16T20:45:00.000+08:00

-She can be a little bullying at times, but that's what I like about her. =)-

Anyway yesterday was a fun and enjoyable day for me, until that fateful phone call.

"Hello, is it James Chia? Eh, you needa re-do the FFI. It's not complete. Please be at the SFT by 8.15am tomorrow. The ferry will leave at 8.30. Attire's smart four, please bring ur admin attire and pt shoes."

I just started ordering songs, with Jiahui, Stinkie and Crystal at cine kbox, happily teasing stinkie with the song jh and crystal ordered specially for me.

Shocked and outraged, I made the call back to the number. The phone indicated number error, which means I couldn't call back to ask what the hell has happened to my previous FFI results. Damn. I cursed under my breath. My PT shoes' with jianlong, and I'm totally not prepared. I could only curse at that point of time. No mood. Totally no mood to sing.

Sorry, jh stinkie and crystal. If any of u 3 sees my blog entry(except stinkie), pls accept my apology for that fateful day.

I explained my scenario to them, and hurried off, back to I was supposed to be. Changing Appetites, to find jianlong. I actually asked zuhao for help, juz in case. Called back company, and the person mentioned that its ok not to wear pt shoes, if u got valid reason. Fine. That's great. My mood didn't really come back though. The thought of going back to tekong for half an hour of FFI test makes me sick. I could just sleep for another 2 hrs and they're gonna rob it, and my $15 bucks of taxi fare. I would rather spend it kboxing with my nakamas, which is much much^(0/0) more worth it. (zero divide by zero)

That's sianx. The army guys went dotaing. I went back home. To pack my stuff. Lousy feeling. My dad said its ok. My heart sorta went up a little. But I was still a bit sianx.

Next morning...

I woke up. Before I realise I had to go tekong. Cursed again.

Ok. Fine. Ate breakfast, went there, 17 bucks taxi fare. (Cursed again)

Luckily I'm not alone. Platoon 3 Sect 1 also kenna screwed up FFI. Ok. Back to tekong. Back to Leopard Company. (My prayers were answered?) Hahaha... Well, last friday's not my last day in leopard company. Well, cs tan and leonard were there. Leonard was alittle surprised to see me. Anyway, did a bit of saigang, be4 we went for the test. Half an hour. We finished everything, expected. Went canteen to eat, be4 going back. =) (Anyway Leonard's in a damn good mood today. Lol. =))

Went to meet jianlong for shoes. He was going bugis anyway. So chatted abit. I went novena find rw, who is slogging everyday in mph. For lunch =)

Anyway come to think of it now, I'm much more fortunate compared to those doing guard duty on sunday. =S

From,
Kaiser

2007-03-15T09:10:00.000+08:00

Single Degree:

1. Chemical Engineering
2. Materials Science & Engineering
3. Environmental Engineering
4. Science (Chemistry!)

Double Degree:

1. Engineering + Econs
2. Engineering + Business

Well, karin's gonna be my senior, if we get to the same ddp! =D

Hehehe... At least I got someone to teach me if I dun noe anything. Lol...

2007-03-13T10:48:00.000+08:00

I've decided my path... Well, at least I wun be swayed by others' comments. At least, I walked the path I chose, I wun regret. I decided to go for ddp and usp, which some may find it urgh. But still, I think I've led a unfulfilling life in jc, frankly speaking. If given a chance again, I wanna chiong suah. And uni, may probably be the last time I get to chiong suah. Although life in uni will be busy, I believe I can derive a sense of happiness, and also a great sense of achievement when I graduate. =)

Now planning to write usp essay and also slacking along the way, talking to stella, who's working now. Lol... Poor girl, has to wake up early every weekday to go chai chee to work. Hahhaa.. Aww well. Good luck!

Hmm, currently doing nothing much now. So got plenty of time to blog. Wanted to blog, but when I reach here, my hands couldn't do anything much to the keyboard. Aww well. Writer's block. Hehe...

2007-03-11T10:23:00.000+08:00

Many things to blog.

It has been a long time since I blogged. Well, let's start from 'A' results. Haha, rather happy with my results, though there are 2 subjects falling short of my expectations, mainly maths 's' and gp. But still, falling short by a little bit only. Planning to go for NUS, NTU, PSC and ExxonMobil scholarships. Probably Sembcorp. See first lor. (Hahahaa... my friends were saying that sembcorp is often related to dao4 la1 ji1) =P

But more importantly, I can go to the course I want! =) Chemical Engineering. Hehe...

Trying out double degree, but a bit lost, as in not sure whether to choose chem eng with econs or business. Well, rw I noe what u are trying to say, but still, I think being ambitious is still a good thing. At least I survived.. =)

Hmmm. I unofficially POPed last thursday. Got slight pneumonia. Should I say I'm lucky or not? Lucky is that becos I went for the RSAF medical interview, and they scanned infection of my left lung. Wrote letter of recommendation to MO in tekong, diagnosed me of pneumonia. Then att c for 7 days, and POP ends be4 I finish att C.

It was a happy-sad moment. It was the last day I'll be in tekong. (well, I stayed overnite be4 I left, cos got admin stuff to settle.)

I almost cried... but held back my tears. Well, I wouldn't miss my bunkmates cos I can still contact them. =P But I will miss my bunk, my bed and my cupboard, where I pasted the photo that motivated me along during my last few weeks in tekong. Memories of tekong and Leopard company, both good and bad. I will always remember, or at least try to. ='(

Thanks Musttafa, for being a good buddy, and sharing your thoughts and secrets with me, which I will keep it in my heart.

Thanks Leslie, for being a good SIT test buddy, and able to withstand my chronic coughing at nite, and also waking u up to go toilet in SBO form.

Thanks to those who gave me good memories, I will nv forget u all. =D

Oh yeah, did I forget the unlucky part? It is that I can't really leave my own house. Urgh. Quarantined. Can't go to any open hses. Damn sianx. And also, I can't even attend their POP ceremony. NOOOOOO......

Well, I'm now at home. Doing all the essays and applications to uni. Otherwise, I'll be doing nothing, or popping cocktails of medicine after meals. Well, that will be my routine for the next 4 days? =S

2007-02-03T21:04:00.000+08:00

Finally today bookout day!!! =D

Went for MFA scholarship tea session... hmm. Didn't really interest me that much.. hahaha.. Alright, anyway the food there is superb!!! (Probably because I had my army share of meals there. Lol.. Actually not tt bad la. Eh, chicken pie for nite snack is totally pwned. LOL >.< Btw chicken pie is hell nice!)

Then went beach road to purchase my jockey cap. Because I left it on the ferry. #$%%$^$^ (Save my vulgarities for field camp...)

Then still got time. Went to meet rw. =D

2007-01-27T09:36:00.000+08:00

'A' results are coming soon... I'm calm about it.

Awfully calm... I dunnoe. Weird feeling. But seems that I'm a little prepared for anything that comes to me. Yeah.

Sick.

From,
James

2007-01-27T09:29:00.000+08:00

天空灰的像哭过离开你以后并没有更自由酸酸的空气嗅出我们的距离一幕锥心的结局像呼吸般无法停息抽屉泛黄的日记榨干了回忆那笑容是夏季你我的过去被顺时针的忘记缺氧过后的爱情粗心的眼泪是多余我知道你我都没有错只是忘了怎么退后信誓旦旦给的承诺却被时间扑了空我知道我们都没有错只是放手会比较好过最美的爱情回忆里待续...

天空灰的像哭过离开你以后并没有更自由酸酸的空气嗅出我们的距离一幕锥心的结局像呼吸般无法停息抽屉泛黄的日记榨干了回忆那笑容是夏季你我的过去被顺时针的忘记缺氧过后的爱情粗心的眼泪是多余我知道你我都没有错只是忘了怎么退后信誓旦旦给的承诺却被时间扑了空我知道我们都没有错只是放手会比较好过最美的爱情回忆里待续...

我知道我们都没有错只是放手会比较好过最美的爱情回忆里待续（相信你我还会有开始只因我们都没有错)

2007-01-10T21:43:00.000+08:00

Sometimes nakamas' messages of well-wishes will make u feel that friends are still there for u... And well, I'm therefore able to concentrate on wat I'm doing. No amount of %^&*()_ will distract me or whatsoever. (Or it's rather I distract myself.)

Thank you, my family and friends.

Towards NS, towards OCS.

From,
James

2007-01-09T09:19:00.000+08:00

Anyway, yesterday was a really fun day. =) Yeah, one last trip to town with my nakamas before I go in and have a feel with my wife and her bullets. (Dun think otherwise, it's my rifle. Cos it's NS time!)

Went PS to meet up with karin, yen and xm. And I was supposed to decide on wad to eat. Lol. Hmm, I went there first, then after which xm came. (Btw, I think its visible la =) juz that that place prob lighting not tt gd, and all of us think that it suits u =)) Well, karin and yen came after a short while, and we proceeded to eat in Ajisen.

Spicy Miso Ramen is hot! But shiok. =D

Hahaha... anyway, when mixed with ice lemon tea, there'll be this Tom Yam taste. Lol... I'm glad got someone that agrees with me =) (Rite, karin?? )

Anyway, eh, after which went up to check on the preview dates of One Last Dance. (Not tea dance... >.<) Hmm, bobian.. wed probably hav. But even with tt, I probably can't go out le. =S Well, went arcade. Hahahaha... Karin was near at winning her minor prize. >.<>.<

Then went Daiso! =)

LOL... Fun lor. =D Hmm, got lots of stuffs to try out, and meddle with. Plus some of the things there are damn cute! Hehe... Well, hope it doesn't become like the 199 shop though.

Haha.. That's all. Probably the last few entries be4 I go in. Hmm, I dunno y. Anticipation + excitement + a tinge of sadness. Yeah. That's how I feel now.

2007-01-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

Phew. Finally. I'm back to my old self, after Kaiser's being ranting all day long about that post. (Btw it's saved in drafts, so dun bother finding it.)

Hmm, anyway. In case some of u (well in fact most of u didn't noe), I've got a split personality. (NONO.. pls dun think of me going to psychologists or smth liddat. I find it scary.. =S) That is, the typical self, and the Yami self (Kaiser & EXWargreymon). Seriously speaking, without my yami self, I won't be able to hold on until now. Frankly speaking, I'm a weak person, as in I do not have much determination and mental strength. Last year was a hell year for me, considering the fact that I've been skipping lessons to go NUS for advanced placement programme (which I seriously didn't regret going =) ) It was Kaiser, who encouraged me to go on... His determination's wad I've nv seen be4. I also have to thank him and EXWargreymon for helping me while I'm taking my Fmaths paper 1 for 'A' levels.

However, that has its side effects too. Well, Kaiser, EXWargreymon and I have been coping with the darker side of me, which has been growing stronger by the minute. It's not a force to be reckoned with. It's a region that once it possesses u, there's no way out. I have to do something to stop it. Well, that is, with the help of my 2 inner selves.

I found out tt I could hardly trust most ppl, except my nakamas. Especially recently. I dun really noe y. (Probably due to brainwashing by my dad and some stupid hk show which I find it applicable to today's life.) Indeed, in today's society, it is really hard to accept ppl easily, and trust them. One moment, they seem to be good buddies, and the next, they backstab.

That's precisely why my darker side aims to be evil, to counter well. I agree, but it's too extreme, in the sense that this darker side of me do not trust anyone.

However, upon careful consideration, I decided to include a selective part of my darker side, Kaiser, EXWargreymon and me, merging into one.

I want to be stronger. Serious. I found that my old self to be too weak, even to survive in today's society. Cruel but true.

I was too indecisive in the past. I want to be a more responsible, more decisive, and more evil, in the sense that I do not want to be too soft-hearted. Anymore.

Meanwhile, I will continue my battle with my inner darker side, and I believe that the battle will never be easy. Probably until the fateful day comes.

My nakamas juz told me tt my tong2 zhen1 is my characteristic, and asked me not to lose it when I go NS. While I was flattered by their comments (face slightly red >.<), I dare not really guarantee tt. Throughout my JC life, I finally realised what's out there for me. It was not wad I expected when I was in secondary school. And I'm gonna experience the first bit of tt when I'm in NS.

And it is not as good as it seems sometimes.

Betrayal. Selfishness. Backstab (though I'm not the victim). I've experienced everything. In my JC life. It can be scary at times.

I realised that the world is developing much faster than I expected. I could not longer hold tt stupid mentality of mine. I'm not the guy who thinks that the world revolves around me anymore.

And that's more to only these. (But I shall not continue any longer.)

I'm juz like a white clean sheet of paper, that has been darkened with the pencil of society over a short period of time. And it will continue, cos frankly speaking, I'm still uncertain how the society's like, and my clean sheet of paper will be darkened even more. What I met is probably the tip of an iceberg.

Though I'm still the happy-go-lucky person as my nakamas have known me, but it's nv gonna be the same again.

Alright.. random entry. Garrrr...

From,
James

2007-01-07T21:51:00.000+08:00

Sometimes. I dun understand girls.

Blah. I dun bother understanding them now. Going ns soon. For goodness sake, get a life, James Chia.

Anyway I finally removed my braces. =D After 2 agonising years. WHOO!

2007-01-03T22:33:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Sometimes I will think whether I'm a boring person. =S

Haix. Sometimes I will lack of topics to talk about. And in groups, especially recently, I feel that I'm the quiet one and rarely talks. Not that I dun feel like, but I dun noe how to merge into it. Sometimes, well its like I dun feel like though.

Alright, enuff of ranting.

2007-01-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

Sometimes things can get so complicated and frustrated that you feel like giving up. But still, I told myself, since things have reached to such a stage, y not fight on the battle? It's not 100% that you will lose? Hahahahaha.

Anyway, the other day I submitted my FIREfly scholarship application form without checking my resume. Now I just hope I can get the interview. -fingers crossed-

Brightsparks's misleading, that is to say. Blah. FIREfly scholarship application phase 1? My foot. Isn't it the same as most scholarship app deadlines? >.<

Alright. Still got a few more to go. Hmm, but seem to be at a standstill now. Grr..

Eh, was rather enthralled by the Shell scholarship though. Hmm, have to apply for the university first before applying for scholarship. Well, I can't, that is. Cos it's like starting from 2007 latest. Wat the... Blah. Have to wait for 2 more years in NS.

Seriously speaking, Imperial College is a damn good choice to study chemical engineering. =D C'mon. Toto strike I straightaway go after ns le. LOL.

Going to some Police schlship talk tml.

Feeling rather vexed now. Dunno y.

Lastly, I have to thank Mr Goh for helping me. =D Eh, went back to sch today to fill up my testimonial form. Then went up to staff room to call him. Hmm, agreed quite readily, and gave me some advice lol. =)

Thanks. =)

2007-01-02T21:33:00.000+08:00

Today's a rather normal day.

I managed to ask Mr Goh juz now regarding him being my referee. Seriously speaking, I have to thank him alot for helping me in wadeva problems I encounter. Haha, although he sounds abit sianx on the phone, I still have to thank him. No matter wat. =D

Photocopied those certs I arranged and re-found while arranging my room with my mom. >.< (I did very little work actually) Well, hmm, alot of certs. Lol. Hope they can be put into good use. =)

2006-12-31T23:45:00.000+08:00

My final post of 2006. Now is ard 11.45pm. 15 mins left. But I shall make this post 12 midnite. To me, the boundary of time is absolutely blurred. How do u define the very midpoint time that distinguish 2006 and 2007? 12 midnite? Nah, that belongs to 2007, not 2006. Likewise, 11:59pm 59 seconds....... (as the nanoseconds goes down to the last bit) belongs to the 2006 era.

As such, probably 12 midnite has the closest proximity to that definition of the midpoint. That's all for today. Well, anyway. The song below depicts my 2006, I should say.

2007? Maybe.

而生命对每个人都不公平也没道理
er sheng ming dui mei ge ren dou bu gong ping ye mei dao li
只能扑向泥泞迎向那阵骤雨由不得你
zhi neng pu xiang ni ning ying xiang na zhen zhou yu you bu de ni
突来的骤雨这条街一路泥泞
tu ran lai de zhou yu zhe tiao jie yi lu ni ning
就像人生不过是一场即兴
jiu xiang ren sheng bu guo shi yi chang ji xing
整个世界正在对我们挑衅
zheng ge shi jie zheng zai dui wo men tiao xin
就算如此还是得无惧前进
jiu suan ru ci hai shi dei wu ju qian jin
手中的邮报封面的人在微笑
shou zhong de you bao feng mian de ren zai wei xiao
下个路口生命在暗巷尖叫
xia ge lu kou sheng ming zai an xiang jian jiao
活着只是油墨上面的一角
huo zhe zhi shi you mo shang mian de yi jiao
明天之后还有谁翻阅的的到
ming tian zhi hou hai shui fan yue de de dao
我跟你用不同方式
wo gen ni yong bu tong fang shi
踩过前方带刺荆棘
cai guo qian fang dai ci jing ji
你嚣张不畏惧退缩
ni xiao zhang bu wei ju tui suo
我低头沉默却坚定
wo di tou chen mo que jian ding
用力的还击发出声音
yong li de huan ji fa chu sheng yin
让他们安静不敢相信
rang ta men an jing bu gan xiang xin
继续前进他们畏惧
ju xu qian jin ta men wei ju
睁大眼睛他们躲避
zheng da yan jing ta men duo bi
然后放弃专心聆听我的声音
ran hou fang qi zhuan xin ling ting wo de sheng yin
而生命对每个人都不公平也没道理
er sheng ming dui mei ge ren dou bu gong ping ye mei dao li
只能扑向泥泞迎向那阵骤雨由不得你
zhi neng pu xiang ni ning ying xiang na zhen zhou yu you bu de ni
如果生命对每个人都不公平也没道理
ru guo sheng ming dui mei ge ren dou bu gong ping ye mei dao li
那就让我带着孤寂继续前进直到光明
na jiu rang wo dai zhe gu ji ju xu qian jin zhi dao guang ming
我我我只有一种容貌我就是永远不会倒
wo wo wo jiu zhi you yi zhong rong mao wo jiu shi yong yuan bu hui dao
我就算逆境环绕我面对也要带着笑
wo jiu suan ni jing huan rao wo mian dui ye yao dai zhe xiao
我只有一种咆哮我要让他们都知道
wo zhi you yi zhong pao xiao wo yao rang ta men dou zhi dao
我生命再怎么粗糙我都要活的很骄傲
wo de sheng ming zai zen me cu cao wo dou yao huo de hen jiao ao
我说自尊啊看起来或许可笑
wo shuo zi zun ah kan qi lai huo xu ke xiao
但它至少撑着我试着不让我跌倒
dan ta zhi shao cheng zhe wo shi zhe bu rang wo die dao
活着如果只是不甘寂静的喧嚣
huo zhe ru guo zhi shi bu gan ji jing de xuan xiao
那就咆哮吧让每个人都能听的到
na jiu pao xiao ba rang mei ge ren dou ting de dao
用力的还击发出声音
yong li de huan ji fa chu sheng yin
让他们安静不敢相信
rang ta men an jing bu gan xiang xin
继续前进他们畏惧
ju xu qian jin ta men wei ju
睁大眼睛他们躲避
zheng da yan jing ta men duo bi
然后放弃专心聆听我的声音
ran hou fang qi zhuan xin ling ting wo de sheng yin
而生命对每个人都不公平也没道理
er sheng ming dui mei ge ren dou bu gong ping ye mei dao li
只能扑向泥泞迎向那阵骤雨由不得你
zhi neng pu xiang ni ning ying xiang na zhen zhou yu you bu de ni
如果生命对每个人都不公平也没道理
ru guo sheng ming dui mei ge ren dou bu gong ping ye mei dao li
那就让我带着孤寂继续前进直到光明
na jiu rang wo dai zhe gu ji ju xu qian jin zhi dao guang ming
而生命对每个人都不公平也没道理
er sheng ming dui mei ge ren dou bu gong ping ye mei dao li
只能扑向泥泞迎向那阵骤雨由不得你
zhi neng pu xiang ni ning ying xiang na zhen zhou yu you bu de ni
如果生命对每个人都不公平也没道理
ru guo sheng ming dui mei ge ren dou bu gong ping ye mei dao li
那就让我带着孤寂继续前进直到光明
na jiu rang wo dai zhe gu ji ju xu qian jin zhi dao guang ming
而生命对每个人都不公平也没道理
er sheng ming dui mei ge ren dou bu gong ping ye mei dao li
只能扑向泥泞迎向那阵骤雨由不得你
zhi neng pu xiang ni ning ying xiang na zhen zhou yu you bu de ni
如果生命对每个人都不公平也没道理
ru guo sheng ming dui mei ge ren dou bu gong ping ye mei dao li
那就让我带着孤寂继续前进
na jiu rang wo dai zhe gu ji ju xu qian jin

2006-12-31T14:19:00.000+08:00

Finally, to top it off, my random thought for today's post.

The Art of Chemistry in Relationships

Ahem... (Clears Throat)

Among strangers bear the bond of Van Der Waals' Forces.

When they first get to know each other, and communicate, stronger bonds are weaved, giving rise to induced dipole-dipole attractions.

For people of same sexes who become close buddies, covalent bonds are formed, which is absolutely strong, like that of a diamond structure. These can only be broken if it undergoes extreme heat and pressure... such as a strongly heated argument, and nothing's being done about it. (Alright the last part being totally crap.)

For people of different sexes who become close buddies, i.e. platonic kind, metallic bonds are formed. (Since opposite sexes represent opposite ionic attractions. And yet, easily broken with considerable amount of heat/ pressure) Soft and malleable, I seriously caution guys especially not to cross the boundary. =
For people who dare to venture in the world of BGR, ionic bonds are formed. =D Ionic bonds are known to be strong, and resistent to heat. However, if things get awry for them, such bonds can break too... Especially if one is too possessive, juz like polarity of an ion overcoming the other... =D

Fine. I'm probably crapping. But juz my random thought. =P

Anyway, new year's resolution:

-Aim for OCS. Excel in OCS.
-Get a scholarship.
-Get a girlfriend =P

That's all. Hahaha... felt that it's a rather (or very >.<) short one. Probably becos the sentence is short too. Lol. Yeah. At least short ones are easier to tick it off when accomplished wad. =D

2006-12-31T13:55:00.000+08:00

Well, back again. Let's start from 28th of december.

28th Dec:

Today was a damn shit day. I agreed him to come, but in the end didn't. I was initially guilty at first, now not. =D All thanks to my friends who encouraged me not to. Stupid and gullible me to believe in his tactics. Well, can't really blame him, it's his company ethics that suck to the bloody core. Yeah. Alright. Initially wanted to stay at home. Lol. Went to the new NTUC that opened today. Damn bloody big, I should say. Hmm, like carrefour, probably slightly bigger? Hahah.. damn proud, cos it's located in AMK. And it is the biggest NTUC in the whole of Singapore. O.O =D

Anyway, xm called me to accompany her to some job interview at 3 pm. AT BUGIS?!!! Lol. That was where I was supposed to meet that ass for that bloody "job" today at 9.10am. Nvm. For the sake of this buddy of mine, I shall "brave the dangers". Lol. Tired cos I ate some runny nose med before going out. A little shaggy look. Hahaha.. Didn't get to see him, relieved. Job interview was rather smooth, and the job was rather slack, which I could agree with xm to a large extent. Haha.. Congrats btw =D Went walked ard while waiting for karin. Saw those who went to sell charity tix, and my heart sort of went out for them, cos I was initially with them, and I backed out last min. Anyway, charity should volunteer wad... not to earn money. I didn't noe initially, until that stupid ass told me when I persisted in asking him wat is it all about RIGHT AFTER I ACCEPTED THE OFFER. HELL STUPID AND GULLIBLE ME. I was desperate for money tt time. >.<

Went to buy file for my resume and stuff. And something happened. Cos I was sooo drowsy that I brought the file out without noticing and without PAYING. SHIT. Until I realised tt when me and xm were browsing in the vcd shop next door. Shit. Immediately went to pay up and apologised. The cashier was like uh-ho me, in a joking manner. Thankfully... I should say. Sigh. Cant' get more blur than anything like this. =S

Called karin out to watch Death Note 2. (I didn't watch cos no money. A bit sianx. And also didn't watch dn 1) Yeah. Went Toa Payoh meet yen, then I went off, while they watch movie. Lol. Alright. That's all for today.

27th Dec:

Yeah.. Met up with jh, crystal and rw for kbox. Lol. Fun! =D and we overshot by 2 + hours, without anyone chasing us out. Hahahaha.. Went out cos crystal was hungry. Went to hk cafe to eat toast. My treat. =D Hmm, went home with rw. Gave her the gift and didn't expect that she got a christmas card for me too. =D Tok on the train, and yeah. That's all.

Hope she likes the gift. And thanks for the card, rw!

Today is a happy day. But I didn't get to tok much. That's the regret. Yeah.

Well, sometimes things have to be slow and lagg... (Random thought.)

Yeah...

2006-12-31T13:18:00.000+08:00

Well, new year's coming. One more day. Haha. Blogg ba. Eh, how to start? Hmm, I think I should start from yesterday.

Yesterday:

Woke up early for job in SAS. (Urgh.. 4.50 per hour. But nvm. Rather stable. =D Though early.) Packed up, and loading goods of textbooks and pe attires to the new storage house in Upper Paya Lebar. Lol. Plus the one I got the day before, total of 14 hours. =D, i.e. 63 dollars. WHEE! =D Anyway quite tiring. Got someone to help me though, Jonathan. (But this guy's quite slack too. Lol. And funny at times, laughing over little things. Uncle Siew (the boss) too! Lol. Said tt he's gonna give us a treat when sch reopens and when he's not tt bz. =)))) Yeah!

Went to watch movie with the e7 girls ard 1 plus 2... Lol. Odd one out. That's rather weird, when I first met up with them, cos no one told me who's going until I asked xm today. Lol. Anyway, a little quiet there, cos I was quite shagged. But enjoyed myself. Hahhaha.. Watched the 5.10pm movie at bugis, and went walk walk, take neoprints (which I didnt' really wan initially) and managed to buy the one piece comic book =D (Finally! My first one piece comic book) Lol. Fun. And together with ks and pek who joined us later, went my hse and played cards. Fun fun. Before that we went the new ntuc. Bigg.... =S Lol. (should be proud of it wad, and anyway not the first time there. Hehe...)

29th Dec:

Went to work early in the morning. Still pondering on the fact that someone whom I tot is my friend, had cheated me juz becos of his company and his stupid commission. Damn. I was almost scammed. Bloody hell. Well, luckily Uncle Siew still needed a couple of helping hands in his last day at SAS during the december holidays. Yupz. Went there... Not many customers, cos many had bought their stuffs earlier on. Phew.. So left bits of packing here and there.

This is where the "Matrix Unloaded" comes. Hehehe..

Uncle Siew: You, the One, come here.
Me: Me???
Uncle Siew: Yeah, come with me, and transfer the goods from the old storage room to the new one.

And then, my adventure begins from 10 am onwards. =D

Alright, went to the old storage house at Kallang Bahru. Hmm, quite small. And their trolleys are huge. =D Lol. Which means can carry lots of stuffs, and save time for loading and unloading. Hehe. Anyway, this pic resembles some events in the movie "The Matrix" LOL. Finished at around 7. Heard from Joshua that he got 4 per hour. Shit. Damn little. Tot it was 4.50. Sigh.

Anyway Aunty Bee ying was screaming and scolding the guys like siao, cos they were toking. Using obscenities somemore. Wth. Luckily she left for Malaysia with her husband for holiday the next day. Phew. I prefer Aunty Siew. =D

Damn tired aft the whole job. >.<>.<

2006-12-17T11:35:00.000+08:00

Yesterday watched "The Holiday" with the girls. Haha, prob one of the best shows ever watched, and also probably one of the longest. >.< =))

Well, come to think of it, I'm utterly stupid. But still I wanna do it. I can't explain y, until I watched that movie. Hahaha. It's damn cool I should say.

Anyway, going mahjong today. Brb. =)

2006-12-12T23:22:00.000+08:00

Yeah! My com's fixed. All thanks to my cousin. =D

Anyway, I really hope that it's fixed. -fingers crossed-

Well, all's well.

Today's COMPASS test. For pilots. =D Haha, I still decided to give it a try. (For the sake of the RSAF soveunir.) Hmm, reached there via taxi, and yeah, a little too early. 1230. Well, nvm. Just sat there, registered, and walked around the SAF career centre. Cool exhibition. Actually wanted to tour more, but somehow, I feel quite tired. Nvm. The couch is simply too comfortable. Eh, waited for more to come. Saw my friend, yeah, chatted abit.

Waited, waited and waited.

Finally. The test starts. Hmm, not as cold as they said. Anyway, got joystick, pedals, and keyboard coordination plus pilot theory. Theory I'm rather confident. Coordination ah.. haha. Just pray hard lor. =)

Well, I dun think I can go beyond the interview at most. Anyway my ambition is not a pilot lol. Lol.

2006-12-10T17:04:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. so many things have happened after 'A' levels.

Well, 'A' levels is neither easy nor hard. It is rather expected. Last batch. They will take the opportunity to slaughter us like fearsome-looking butchers killing lambs. (Sorry, we dun look like lambs though. >.<) But I should say the subject I'm most satisfied about is fmaths. At least I wun get a O for sure anymore. =)

Chalet was hell lot fun =) Juz tt I got a little too drunk on the 2nd nite. >.<

Prom nite was a little disappointing.

Went rock climbing with junzhe and his bro, gordon, jingguo and hongyue. Gordon is awesome at climbing those walls. Looks like I've got much more to learn. >.<

Didn't wan to go into details. Haha, a picture speaks a thousand words. Let alone memories.

Went for pilot seminar at suntec the next day. Cool. Quite a lot of ppl there. Saw Minli again. Lol. Yeah. I saw the pilot captain again. (Cool! Btw his surname is lau) Talks and talks about different job opportunites, and well, no breaks in between. Got a bit sianx halfway. Captain Lau's tok was interesting though. Hmm, actually it was him who inspired me to consider pilot as one of my career choices. (He was featured in the SAFOS magazine.) After which was refreshments. Haha. He recognised me and my mom and came over to tok to us. Yeah. Asked quite a few qns on pilot vocation. Gained quite alot.

Anyway, I think wad rw said was rite. Follow ur heart. Hmm, it may be easy to tell urself tt, but somehow its not easy to do so. In this world, there are circumstances where u are not allowed to follow ur heart. Well, I decided to go for the COMPASS test, but 99.999% confirmed not to go for the subsequent tests. Yeah. To tell the truth, I would rather spend 10 years of my life doing a variety of things than to be in the cockpit doing acrobats. Haha, pilot is an interesting job I admit, but to get in is not easy, and to maintain the job is even more difficult and very stressful at times.

Well, I'm probably not a good friend, but I believe that I can change for the better. =) (To all my friends, juz a random thought.)

That's all. Haha. =) Finally out of the place after 1 year and 9 months of the place of not-really-that-much-agony-and-yet-not-that-much-happiness.

-_-"

2006-11-10T22:37:00.000+08:00

Guys, if u ever watched One Piece, the World Government is totally like the Singapore Examination Board, and the cambridge markers, as the marines.

They are certainly out to kill us.

Man. So we are the pirates. Pirates with HUGE bounties on our heads, hahahha...

So where's our One Piece (AAAA)? And Raftel?

Manx, the journey on the Grand Line is certainly shit. But you can't back out now, especially with the calm belt surrounding the Grand Line.

Yeah. I juz got a bounty.

(This is typed out when I was damn sianx. Lol. One piece addict)

2006-10-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

Well yes. I'm back to blogging. But this will be the last post before I proceed to the arena.

Yes, "A" levels.

I received this post mail from SAF scholarship board. The words written on the cardboard were rather impactful.

"Score in waves!"

Yes. I can and I will if I wan to.

Hmm, today didn't go mph to read up on the book. Sort of missed it right now. Hahah.. The contents inside were really meaningful and useful. Alright, I can't remember all the things right now. But one thing for sure, dun be obsessed with winning. Do the best.

And believe in yourself.

Indeed it seems impossible for me to score full marks for any subject (for me of course), but if I put in my best, I will get wat I achieve. Straight As. And I dun think I'm asking too much. Seriously.

I know y I'm stressed now. Low confidence.

C'mon, the results in the prelims are the product of ur low-confidence , stress and complacency. You should not be stressed over nothing. Seriously nothing.

AAAA. U can. No.

I should say "you will."

For the sake of the last battle, do it.

This battle... determines where you go. Stress only blinds u like the haze. Complacency only makes you walk to the road of doom. Show ur very best. Can u get a 76 for your physics? Can u get a 38 for ur chemistry mcq? Can u get near perfect score for maths? Or, can u break ur A barrier for ur fmaths and gp?

You can.

Y? Becos you hav done it before. Since you did it before, y say u can't now?

2006-09-28T20:18:00.000+08:00

"I would prefer to agree that everyone is unique in one’s own way. For me, I will say that I’m not unique. That itself ironically makes me unique."

Good Phrase! By the owner of this blog (copyright reserved) (R)

2006-09-26T21:00:00.000+08:00

ABBO. Confirm.

I dunno y I'm off form. I did my best. I seriously. Then wat deters me from gettting my goal? My arrogance, my complacency, my distractions?

Now, I'm just numbed by the results I've gotten back.

If fallling into the abyss makes u feel better, then why work hard in the first place?

Yeah...

All these while I've been working hard to see such results? I refuse to admit defeat. I refuse. I refuse.

People can do it. Why not me?

2006-09-25T21:15:00.000+08:00

Blur. Tired. Shagged. Anything related to "lethargy" can be used to describe wat I'm feeling rite now. ( Plus sick)

Tried to start my revision pace. Failed.

Anyway, I'm here to blog about today's sch day.

Yeah, we had flag raising in the parade square, even though the clouds looked ominously dark. It started to drizzle a little when the announcements were still on. Well, we scramble for shelter in the end. Someone was saying that " I should hav been almost late today, can stand under the shelter lol."

Hahaha.. That really tickled my laughing bone. Who else can do it? Open to interpretation.

Anyway, got back some of our papers. Maths expected. Physics unexpected.

Tml? Chem? Haha.. I don't wanna think much. It's just prelims. At most I get enlisted late. =) (Which is good! Cos I can spend more time fruitfully doing something else.)

Lower my standard. ABB(D/E). No F pls.

I dunno y I'm so despaired. Haha..

2006-09-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. back from the long dormancy. Alright. I blog.

Haha.. no la.. not becos of u weikiat. =P

Some of the schs are having holiday tomoro. Well, probably except our sch. Y? No 'S' paper exam. I was actually wondering y aj doesn't hav 'S' paper exam??? (Well, not that I'm being perverse, but somehow I've got this gut feeling that the teachers are probably lazy to set lol.)

For me, it doesn't really mean anything except more practice? Haha. Lame excuse. Alright. But somehow I think aj should hav one instead. At least those taking the exam noe where their standard lies, and also to get more prepared when the real thing comes knocking to ur door. Haha.. To a certain extent, I do envy them.

Y? Becos they are in schs that do concern 'S' paper students after all.

U see, in aj, being a 'S' paper student probably means staying back late and going thru assignments teachers required for us to prepare. And that's all. Well, how many government scholars in aj? Haha.. Probably "once in a blue moon" (quoted by lkt)

Haha.. personally, I do not really noe how other schs operate. But I hav this feeling that aj doesn't hav faith in ppl taking s papers. Well, that's my opinion. It's not a fact. (Readers can choose to ignore it if they wan.)

For all they care.. Last batch of students taking lol.

I can still remember the criteria of taking even one.

1. 7 A1s for 'O' levels
2. lower than 9 points for 4 subjects. (as in A for 1 point, B for 2 points subsequently)

The rest I dun really wan to go into details, as they are rather reasonable.

But u see point number 1? I bet 99.9% of the students who wanted to apply for one has to flock to general office to get appeal forms. No paper how? Haha, go find top 5 colleges 'S' paper students who got 7 A1s? Hmm, probably can form a small community of a hundred? But I'm certain not all are included.

What does this show about aj's policy? Well, it's all open to interpretation. =)

Haha... Well for those who succesfully applied for one or two? congrats. But here comes the challenge. Teachers may take note of those who take s papers and suan them if they do not score well in their corresponding subjects. (Well, I wun say all, but some?)

Haha. And plus, they face tremendous pressure from peers who expect them to be good in studies, when in fact some dun.

As a result, they dropped.

But unlike the dropping of the atomic bomb, this is ______news to the teachers, who probably have less to teach, and are able to teach less students. (interpret the _____ news urself). And more SDL? (Yeah, we should do our self reading to a certain extent la. -shrugs-)

Well, under the tth era, where 'S' paper students are treated more shabbily than others, I salute to those who are able to get scholarships despite all these ordeals.

According to notes from other colleges, some of which is OOS, which enriches the knowledge of students, and also to prepare some of them for 'S' papers? For us, nah nah.. (Acutally I also don encourage it, y? Pls think. Hint: Foundation is also important before branching out.)

50 odd students in VJ taking econs 'S' paper vs none in AJ? What does this show?

That our current econs students are useless? No! That they are wise in not taking 'S' papers under certain circumstances. They are able to do it if they wan to.

For those taking, they are wise too. (Not as wise as the previous category, i.e. I'm not as wise as them lol. =X) And they are really determined to represent the last batch, before the syllabus sets in. (which has already set in from 2006 onwards.)

2006-07-28T21:55:00.000+08:00

Not being able to be in NDU is supposed to be a good thing for me. However, something has made me pissed right now.

Anyway, I woke up very early at 615. I was nervous and worried. I seriously dun wanna get into ndu. Lol. Ppl may find me crazy. But the truth is, my passion is not there, it's at ocs. =) Anyway, I took the train to sembawang, saw ky.. then proceed to the bus interchange to ask for direction since it was rather early, i.e. 7.00am. Manx.. imagining facing an almost empty sun plaza when u wan to go walk walk to kill time.

The person at the information counter is bloody rude.

"I don't know la!!!"

Fuck him downside up.
(Dun ask me y I use such vulgarities today. I'm in a bad mood now.. this will not happen if something didn't occur earlier on.)

I went to the mrt control room to ask for direction, and proceeded to the sembawang roundabout pickup point. Met a few familiar faces.. haha.. guess I'm not alone. Took attendance and called our names.. (Mundane).. and we proceed to the camp via bus. Manx... The camp looks rather cool.. haha..

There's this statue (winged frog with a spear on one hand and bomb on another.)

Lol. The statue is rather cool... =)

Anyway... we had our personality and IQ test, which lasted for 2 plus hours.. filling all the mcqs. 200 plus 300 questions in total. Urgh... sickening.

Went for fitness test. *** here and there... did 6 pull ups and 210 cm for sbj. Swimming wise? Eh, also ***. 3:23 for 100m.

After which we went for lunch at the canteen there. Rated the best by the SAF! =)))

Here's an excerpt by the Navy News:

Where can you find the best cookhouse-served meals in the SAF? For all the times our servicemen and women have argued over which cookhouse has given them the most delectable culinary experience, the SAF's 8th Cycle Cookhouse Grading has given an unequivocal answer-- the Sembawang Naval Base (SNB) Cookhouse.

=) I totally agree.

The food really really rocks! =)))

Then we proceed to the medical centre for checkup. (Again) Drew blood, right after we finished lunch.. (smart choice huh???) I was lucky to dio this guy who drew blood for me. It was rather painful, compared to the cmpb one.. (dunno y) Another batch who dio another guy had to undergo injection twice. Cos he can't find the blood vessel.

Man..

Did tests that were comparatively different from that found in CMPB, and there was one that was rather unforgettable. It is to measure the maximum amount of air that is measured from your lungs, and u have to blow through a device hard and fast.

The machine juz screwed itself upside down. I took it 4 times.. Didn't pass. Wat the heck? The rest too.. In the end, the medic had to adjust the machine so that everyone passes this test. -_-"

Btw one of the medics over there looks uncannily like stinky.

Lol...

(Be right back for part II)

2006-07-19T20:10:00.000+08:00

Monday:

Man.. I was already dying of fatigue. And well luckily, chem lesson at the last period (215-415) was rather full of jokes and laughther, especially near the end. Ruixiang was reading through the objectives of the Thermodynamics notes and kept on pointing out the errors, he wanted to bug Mr Goh... Lol. Then in the end, 20 mins was spent in examining the objectives, in our group. LOL.

Then, dunno y, we started making fun of Lagg and stella, and D entity. Then went to sing wei4 she3 me4 melody thingy. (Guess we were really crazy at that time le... >.<) Lol.. Lesson haven ended and we already went haywire. Manx...

After which was maths s. ...

Tuesday: Morning wasn't pretty well started. There's this little cockcroach that almost crawled up my body from the body towel, which I used to wrap myself in. Luckily, I was still alert to spot it, despite my worsening fatigue condition. I managed to sweep it off, and blanketed it to death using the soap dispenser. Thick and creamy one... (Definitely lethal)

Handball is great! =)))) Ruixiang actually tried fakes and stunts.. damn cool. I liked the game too.. Manx.. if there's handball cca at nus, I will CONFIRM DIE DIE join one. =D

Show u this pic. (Disclaimer: Although pic's blurred, but pls view it after meal.) I actually tried to take it twice. Can't, cos missed focus. In the end, Ruixiang the daredevil took it. LOL. DAMN SMELLY. This shows that the toilet in this sch... CMI.

Haha... Stinkie, U've got a competitor in terms of toilets.

Chem S in the late afternoon. I almost couldn't make it le. If Jeanne's not coming, I will be ponning with her lol.

Then there's this bug bugging my feet when I took off my socks, preparing to enter the house. Bloody hell, I stepped it to death. Sticky... =X

Wednesday (Today): Unlucky day. I lost my road race file. Shit shit shit... WTF... HIS. (Sorry for being too vulgar, damn tired now) I tot ruixiang took it for fun (juz like wat he did to Jiacheng for his correction fluid >.<), turned out not. That guy/girl will have bad karma. Manx. Steal from me.

Chem lecture was about chemical industry in Singapore. Got external speaker. Learnt alot. =)

GP remedial for whole cohort. But I learnt things. (which is good =D)

After which meet Mr Ong for resume correction. Manx. That's alittle sianx.

=X

Time to sleep now. (Although now is 8.20 pm.) I'm simply too damn tired... Too tired to give a shitty damn about anything now. Will start my revision pace within these 48 hours starting from now.

Medicine---- 66
Chemical Engineering----66
Dentistry----66

WTF. But I will do it. =)

From,
Dark Lord

2006-07-14T18:37:00.000+08:00

Today's slightly dulan.

It seems that miss low can't see ghosts in 02/05. Only Zhimin and Hongyue presented the gp project, while that thing juz stayed at the cursed table, shaking its legs. On the other hand, miss low remained unaware of the situation (or was she aware but kept quiet).

Meanwhile, she used slight sarcasm on us when we presented our a-few-hours-old gp project. Man.

Went home with the-boy-who-do-not-want-to-be-named today. He agrees wat I said. It's not really our fault that we flunk our gp.

Eh, I think I'm starting to blog more about the sch, with a tone like that of the-boy-who-do-not-want-to-be-named. Manx. Let me be liddat today.

Somehow, I juz find that life has come to a standstill. I'm only longing to study. (mind u, study, not mug. >.<)

Sianx.

Grading later. I'm trying my best to be lenient. But I noe I can't.

From,
Dark Lord

2006-07-13T19:55:00.000+08:00

Due to repeating pleas and threats from that person, I decided not to put that pic onto the blog. Lol.

From,
Dark Lord

2006-07-12T19:06:00.000+08:00

"The fact that u are here to organise will mean that u all will score well in the examinations. =)"

Thank you Mr Sanuse. Thank you guys for all the help and effort in putting interhouse road race a success. =)

From,
Dark Lord

2006-07-11T19:50:00.000+08:00

Got back my physics paper. The feeling?

Just like Japan vs Australia during the world cup. Just that I'm the Australian team.

I got 76/110 for paper 2 and 3, which is like 1-mark-to-a-just-A mark. Manz. I was thinking that I need 30 marks to save my A. And it came as a big surprise to me when I got 38. Manz.. 76 again. This time? 76%. =)

Maths C:

A

Got a 76, which is 1 mark less than the boy who wanted not to be named. Manz.. But I was rather satisfied. This is one of the subjects in which I've reached my own target. As usual, carelessness was my lethal weakness, but I managed to perk up throughout the examination, with a reduced number of such mistakes, especially in statistics. =)

Physics:

A

Got a 76. =) This is rather unexpected. Nevertheless I was happy. Besides the part where I screwed up my electric field question very badly, the rest were really ok, with little careless mistakes. The weakness of this paper lies in the definitions, in which I didn't really score well due to my laziness to memorise and understand the definitions. Manz. (Loathe to memorise, which makes me like a mugger. =X)

But I will for my prelims and A levels. =)

Chemistry:

C

Got a 57. This is again, rather unexpected. Although many ppl mentioned that the paper is really difficult, with the teacher saying that it's of rj hc standard. Manz. I can get an A for this. Carelessness is one of the lethal weapons that caused my marks. More importantly, the failure to phrase my thoughts properly and also the failure to put necessary and core information into my answer.

Not to be missed, complacency. I learnt my mistake hard. The second time I got my C, ever since last year's mid year common test.

By the way, 9 in the whole cohort got A, while 50 odd ppl got B.

Further Mathematics

E

Wtf (weber tesla farad). This is suay. Carelessness as usual. The main problem is my mental block that attacks like the crimson barlog. Rare but very lethal. Practise more? That's probably the only answer to my solution to get better results.

GP

C6

Compre was rather well done. =) Got a B4. And here comes this roller coaster that sends me down from Bukit Timah to hell, when I got back my essay. 17/50. Manz. This is also suay. And also, Mohan didn't mark with constructive comments, and I already condemned him like mad. %^&*()$%^()%^&amp;%*&&*(^&&^%*). Ok that's enough. Instead of lamenting my results, I should work even harder, and grasp my B or even my A in the prelims AND the 'A' levels.

Goal:

Maths 9233 A 75
Chemistry A 80
Physics A 70
F-Maths B 60
GP B4 >55

What I obtained:

Maths 9233 A 76
Chemistry C 57
Physics A 76
F-Maths E 45
GP C6 45

Lessons to be learnt:

1. Never by complacent.
2. Try ur very best NOT to be careless in whatever u do! Grrrrr.
3. Practise more!
4. Should hav played 1 more week of maple... -_-"

By the way, this is the very first time that my physics scored better than chem. And way better. Couldn't they co-exist together in equilibrium in the 75-80 mark region? =P

Road race is tomorrow. Better pray nothing bad occurs. Horray guys. We can do it =).

From,
Dark Lord

2006-07-10T17:14:00.000+08:00

Manz. Chem C. Yupz.

Although the paper is difficult by most, I wun say tt its really difficult. Mainly becos it can be due to careless mistakes. Overall whole cohort did rather badly, and given the fact I was second in cls =), well, ok la.

-Forceful smile-

But this teaches me something. Never overestimate and be complacement in wadeva u do, no matter how confident u are.

GP C6.

Compre? Good pat on my shoulder. Compo? Nah. If the comments given for my essay is reasonable, I will accept my fate and admit defeat, and planning to do better next time. But bloody mohan sucks big time. He juz gave simple comments like " not a really good point". And the paper throughout was really clean... And u can occasionally see real faint traces of red ink drawn across certain lines, without elaboration.

Wat can u say?

GP teachers in this school suck. Big Time. I rather depend on myself.

From,
Dark Lord

2006-07-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

2006-07-07T23:05:00.000+08:00

It is noted to be exponential due to the fact that there'll be hard core muggers and study-smart ppl in this sch, so there will always be students coping well. And also, since 100% spoonfeeding of students is discouraged (which I totally agree), there will never be 0% rate of SDL.

2006-07-07T20:36:00.000+08:00

Everything's over. I'm relieved, with a sense of sadness. I dunno... It's been hard on me. Time to let go.

As I've let go, the dragon within me has awoken. Deep within the dark valleys, asleep for thousands of years or so. Wat I can hear now, is its ferocious roar, and its never-say-die spirit.

The dragon is ready. This dragon, a.k.a. yami kairyu.

From,
Dark Lord

2006-07-06T11:56:00.000+08:00

Shevchenko of Ukraine (top scorer of UKraine in world cup, formally from AC Milan and now bought by Chelsea) made this statment:

" Everyone makes mistakes. It is only a matter of when you made it."

Yes. I made my mistake in F-maths this time. Will I make it the next time? Nope.

Mistakes are never meant to be repeated twice. Never.

Miss Goh's remarks on my Maths C paper:

"Well done, James! Your hard work & determination & perserverence paid off. Continue to strive for even better results."

Miss Goh's remarks on my FMA paper:

"James, you showed perserverence and willingness to try hard. Keep up your spirit of hard work, determination and of enquiry. It will open up many frontiers and opportunities for you! I hope others can learn from you in this!"

Well, I was surprised when she made this statement in my FMA. I failed rather badly for FMA.

Well, Miss Goh, I will. I always believe in my ability, every moment. Never doubting a single bit of it. I will do it. This is juz a bad fall, I will get up. As wat my quote above has stated, everyone makes mistakes, and it is only the matter of when u make it. I wun repeat my mistake in prelims and A levels. I won't.

This time, I lost the battle at the land of further maths. I conquered the land of Maths C and achieved my goal. Next time, I shall conquer both.

Blogging about yesterday later. Going off soon.

From,
Dark Lord

2006-06-30T13:38:00.000+08:00

Ragnarok's over. I'm slightly disappointed with my results. But things are still not really finalised yet.. I wun fail my fmaths? Hahahaha...

Well, mid year is over, and time to remove my battle suit and take a good break. =))

Today was rather sianx. Intended to go out to town... sigh... in the end, got stuck at food court chatting and arguing where to watch movie. In the end, me and rx were laming around with food. After which, he bought a copy of newpaper and smeared it at stella and yingyi's face. Hahaha.. stella and yingyi's face turned black with the carbon.>.<

Well, blogging now. Remembered wanted to blog something more here, but became "blogless" when I got online. =S

Kk, nvm. Comtinue to blog while I'm waiting for my maple program to finish downloading after 1 hr and 30 mins. Well, I'm rather pessimistic, and yet optimistic at the same time. Hahaha.. maybe 30-70?? hmm, u see, I'm able to attempt some of the mechanics and most of the other questions most of the time. But problem is, I get entangled with the problem of carelessness and mental blockage (which is uncommon for me). Haha... But I think it wun be as bad as last year's promos. =)

As I have mentioned earlier on, things are still not finalised yet.

Alright. 35-65.

Probably I'm juz a person who dun really like to give up easily. I'm easily driven by words of sarcasm and criticism. And I often strive to my very best. It isn't easy, but I know if I juz fall down like that, I juz shouldn't hav chosen this path.

Yes. I will do it. No matter wat. First of all, practice. Secondly, remove my mental block.

I'm still in search for my other two As.

And I have 4 months to obtain it.

And I hav to do it. And I will. When James says he can do it, he will do it.

Alright, enough saying about this. Aww, I felt a little liberated today. After 3 weeks of agony. Awww.. missed my maple warrior. Hahaha..

10-90.

If u read my blog carefully, u should noe wat is this.

Lol.

From,
Dark Lord

2006-06-21T19:21:00.000+08:00

I finally know why I chose this place.

One thing for sure, this place's nv fit into the concept of my "second home", wat Zhonghua was like.

This place, shall be wat I call a "pawnground". Where ppl will pawn each other...

And my purpose here is to pawn, and not to get pawned.

From,
Dark Lord

2006-06-19T23:14:00.000+08:00

Not in mugging mood.. Earlier on this morning. I juz scolded that person who's been pestering me whenever I'm on msn. Feels good, but guilty at the same time. =S

I think he's really fouled up becos of me today.

I think I forgot what I learnt for chem.

It's time that I should set some goals for myself. AAAB? Yes. I will do tt. AAAB.

It's time I should do myself a favour. A good favour.

Maths:
Good improvement. Especially in stats. But beware of ur careless mistakes, as u may end up dropping from high A to a low one, or high B..
F-Maths:
Same applies for this. See above. Juz shift the grades down by one, tt's all. =P
Chemistry:
Complacency will do u no good. Do more, read more, and make use of ur memorising skills. And u will find urself on the top.
Physics:
...

Maths 9233 A
Chemistry A
Physics A
F- Maths B
GP B4

One week be4 Ragnarok. To be exact? 6 days.

From,
Dark Lord

2006-06-15T20:36:00.000+08:00

Urgh. Being sick is definitely not a good feeling. (Was it ever a good one?)

See, I'm toking nonsense now, even be4 the medicine cocktail took effect in my body, making me drowsy. Sianx.

I juz had 5 types of medicine, 3 tablet types, 2 syrup types.

Ahhh, I'm feeling groggy and queasy now.

Anyway, today woke up very early, too sick to sleep. Nose block. Physics of fluids.

Juz started mechanics. SHM is ok, hope I dun screw up due to my careless mistakes.

%^&%&^*) you, careless mistakes. Yes.

Going to start circular motion soon, but I sort of felt queasy once again, when I saw the radius(omega) = tangential velocity juz now. Dun noe y. >.<

Urgh.

From,
Dark Lord

2006-06-15T11:16:00.000+08:00

If gordon is sick monster number one, then I'm number two.

I'm terribly sick rite now, sneezing and having nose block too. Lethargic. Urgh.

If I've to apply Physics of Fluids in real-life application, my nose will do.

Shit day.

Urgh.

From,
Dark Lord

2006-06-08T22:49:00.000+08:00

Once again, I'm back.

There's a good mugging place. NUS central library! =)) Hahaha.. too bad its a little inaccessible. Anyway, I met up with guohao yesterday to mug. I was late due to maple, but he was later than me. Hahahah... in the end, we missed 3 trains. Went Woodlands library, and not much surprise, we couldn't find any tables. So we settled for some cushioned seats. He moved his seat beside mine (which was prohibited), and I was like "eh... I dunno u. Lol." Hahaha... Mugged.

Indeed, aunties nowadays are rather well-informed. Toking about recent movies and discussing the issues related. =P

We had some disturbance over there. There was this kid who screamed every now and then, and yet her mom didn't do much to stop it. If I were her parent, I will push her trolley out to prevent more embarrassment. This sort of kid ought to be taught manners indeed. (Manners taught... hehehe) Tsk tsk.

Finally, the librarian came and asked Guohao to shift back the seat, and he actually denied flatly that he moved the seat, insisting that the arrangement was already liddat when we came. LOL.

Joker siah. But I like it. =)

Ate at the food court in the shopping centre... the hot plate + soup + rice X 2 is really super value-added.

Taste: *****
Value: *****

Hahaha.. nothing to say. Sedap.

Decided to go NUS lib to mug later. In the end, we had to take the train to Buona Vista and bus 95 to reach there. By the time we reached there around 5 le. Hahahah.. but nvm. The trip was worth it...

I think NLB is pale in comparision, compared to NUS central library.

Spacious and refreshing.

COOL. Him (chingliang's pun)

Not much ppl there too. (which is good) So we sat at some corner, which is really really quiet.. to mug. Until 7, when we got chased out by this annoucement of closing the library after 15mins (Something liddat la) They do hav a peculiar way of chasing out those who are rather addicted to the interior of the library.

They play music to distract u, eventually to get u so fed up that u feel like leaving.

Be4 visiting the library, we went to the souvenir shop downstairs to window shop, and guohao managed to buy a collar pin for himself. Quite nice, I find. I didn't buy anything, cos I wanted to save. =)

Hahaha...

Went home aft that. TOo tired. Hahahaha...

Today got meeting with Sanuse. About the road race thingy, with the committee. And I'm the leader. =) Hahaha... but still exploring the ways of being a good leader. Hehehe... well, settled most of the stuff required.. And I do really hope to get my sports leaders award.

That's y I insist on settling everything well and near-perfect for this planning.

And I find myself to be scammed by my CCA. Not only in JC, but also in secondary school days. That's rather sad. CCA teachers treat u as a saigang warrior, and u find urself only rewarded at most with meagre service hours, and rather pointless testimonals. In worst scenarios, they dun even say a thank u and u're required to step down for juniors, or even get sacked becos u dun fulfill some of his requirements.

CCAs? It can be useful, but at the same time, it serves as a double edged sword. U learn the ways of life, u get to learn how ppl make use of each other, for the sake of themselves, and also (altruistically???) for the sake of the CCA. (last part is rather redundant. It's getting more difficult to find ppl liddat.)

Wad he once promised me is juz a fallacy. I get nothing but only service hours. Hahahah... for the sake of my testimonal? Go review ur conscience be4 saying that. I dun really think u deserve to be a CCA teacher anyway. Not that I emphasise on having good testimonals, but I wanted wat I did to be recognised. That's all.

Yes, I'm realistic. U can say me watever u wan. But I learnt my lesson, especially after I got a B3 for my secondary sch CCA... ( 1 point to A2) Yes, I admit tat I had slacked, and I dun really deserve tt. That's y I'm trying my very best to get involved, and be more responsible for wadeva I've done.

And I wun end up in this school, if I got an A2.

From last year, I realised how important CCA is.. but it's a little too late...

From,
Dark Lord

2006-06-06T00:48:00.000+08:00

Transmutation circle. I find it rather cool.

Anyway today (rather yesterday) didn't revise momentum. Cos no momentum. =( Revised 2nd D.E. instead. Hahaha..

From,

Dark Lord

2006-06-05T20:51:00.001+08:00

Watching superband now. Well, competition's getting tougher and tougher. Haha.. which means, more nice shows for us to watch and speculate le. =) Anyway, I think Juz B rox. =))) AND BTW, IT GOT THE HIGHEST SCORE!!! WOO HOOO!!!! =D THat's really cool man... But I find today's performance damn funny...>.<

Today was somehow pissed. Someone actually tried to pry open my room's window panel, hoping to find some treasures inside my house. Grr, if I get to catch him, I make sure he will not live past me. Bloody hell.. wat a pity that I didn't get to see him. ****

My neighbour actually caught a glimpse of him, shifting the clothes hanger stand. But he escaped be4 my neighbour could actually see him properly. Sianx.

Now, my window's got extra protection le, with all the styrofoam board, and newspaper packed tightly in between the window panels and window grills. So where should I display my cd covers? =(

Sigh.

Today went to sch. Argh sianx. Daljit was nagging and scolding us toking and toking during our timed practice, and she didn't realise that she was the only one making so much noise that we can't even concentrate and think of the points for our gp essay.

But thanks to aj, she relented and cut short the whole time practice, going thru the gp essay with us. Y? Becos the air conditioner was not switched on in the auditorium, and we were practically sitting in some oven, waiting to be roasted. Hahah.. save money until liddat, might as well close down the school.

Muz be the OM. Shit him... he shall be the second person that I will beat up today if I get to see him. He's juz lucky that I didn't get to see him. Ha.

Speaking of tt, if I get rich (nah.. I will) and they ask me back to help out in the alumni association, I will sack the vp and OM first, before even considering to donate money to the school...

Went AMK food centre with the class (plus nicholas =)) later on. Tok crap.. hahaha... (still thinking about the bak chor mee mr brown show) Wad sianx and damn tired after that when zhimin was shopping for her jacket. =X Seems that shopping isn't the thing for me and ani. In the end, we ended up listening to songs played at the Hang Ten store, and ani was saying that rainie's ai mei makes him feel tired + hungry + thirsty. HAHAHAHA.... Ok...

Went home and took a nap. The contractor came and looked at the window panel around 4 plus. In the end, he said that it was rather ok, despite some loosening here and there for the particular window panel. Sigh. Ok...

Now blogging. Later do mechanics. First chapter. And easy one =P

Momentum. =D

Oh yeah, I cut my hair until almost damn botak yesterday. Hahaha.. Seems only ani is slightly 'impressed' with my haircut, while the rest said nothing much about it, perhaps eh.. dunno wat la. Hahahah... Feels cooling though. =D

From,
Dark Lord

2006-06-02T19:01:00.001+08:00

First time I've blogged ever since I changed my blogskin.

Well, I dun really expect this holiday to be enjoyable, especially when u hav a mid yr to prepare at the end of the holidays. =S

Well, did nothing really much this week. Except for bazhang day..i.e. the day be4. hahahaha. Well, went gym with sam, and besides doing workout, we went to look out for chiobus, and to our disappointment, not much findings. =S As sam has said, dun expect too much at the gym. =P

Hahaha.. that's not the point. I need some training. Sigh, but I think I was a little sick on that day. Sam's biceps is big man.. btw. Lol. So didn't do really much.

Anyway, I chatted alot with him. Hahahaha.. really enjoyed the moments with him.. Hmm, if u moved already, pls tell me ur phone no. k??? Hahahaha...

I saw the cat again today...hahahaha... sleeping. Wondering y cats love to sleep? Especially in afternoons??

Now watching the 7 pm show on channel u.. hahaha.. abit cliche. Cos such things nv exist in reality.

Random thoughts.

Sometimes if life could be simple, that would be good. But I can't.

I've got the kind side, and the dark side within me. While the dark side of me prefers challenges, the kind side of me prefers peace.

Did we get onto the ring due to forced circumstances, or did we choose to be shaped by those circumstances and get on with the battle we face in everyday's life?

While I envy the life of the cat which I saw today, I've decided to go on with the battle. For myself.

From,
Dark Lord

2006-05-28T18:16:00.000+08:00

It's me back again. Pissed.

Becos of T**. He's juz a bitch.

Ppl tease or whack him for fun, he will go scold here scold there.
He does the same thing towards others, ppl cannot do that to him.

Wat the heck?

I remembered one very good example. (Though not really entirely on this) I didn't really wan to go for maths S lesson, and I stupidly told him about it.

"U dun wan to attend might as well dun take!"

Wat bout him? The number of lessons he attended can be counted using one hand.

Haha.

Wat a joke.

Anyway, the sl route is interesting. Haha.. made a few funny jokes here and there. But I (not only me) was comprehensive about the actual thing. Hope everything runs smoothly on that day. =S

From,
Dark Lord

2006-05-12T18:14:00.000+08:00

Muz blog about yesterday.

=)

AJ choir rocks! =))

Anyway good job Jeanne, and i didn't manage to see the 2 screwups u made yesterday. =P A pretty cool and fresh experience for me, cos my perception of choir performances are rather boring. YESTERDAY's performance did really make me appalled. =D

Good job! Once again.

Anyway had NAPFA yesterday.

Almost got a 29 gold. Too lazy and lethargic to jump over that 250 mark. -mutters-

"Shouldn't hav played badminton. Rain rain.. though that it wouldn't go away."

Pretty disappointed with my 2.4km run. 1 more second from my record. Shit. Thought I could break the 10:27 mark. Grrr...

But shuttle run is really record-breaking for me. 9.3s. Geez.

Good job my nike Air shoes. U two deserve a rest. =)

Juz do it.

Juz finished my tutorials on chem. Yeah.

One more to go for today. Then revise for mid-year. =P

Kiasu rite? Hahahahaa..

Well, that's all.

From,
Dark Lord

2006-04-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

Read my previous posts, which I find rather childish.

Hmm, anyway.

I saw the goals I set for my mid-year, and end of year last year. Hahah, ridiciously high.

But without these, will I be able to survive in this dog-eat-dog world? Nope.

Goals are important.

Physics test tml. And I juz found another weakness of mine (besides carelessness). Whenever I see the paper, I will get freaked out. Even though the paper may be super easy.

Hmm, let's see. I will try not to get freaked out when I see the paper tml. =)

From,
Dark Lord

2006-04-01T20:26:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. today's flag day's a total flop. I failed as a volunteer. Utterly...

Too tired probably. I dunno la. Juz wanna slack throughout, but felt guilty thinking of the ppl in need. Anyway went lunch with crystal and juying (her friend) at koufu toa payoh. Damn paiseh.. wanted to eat spicy stuff to "train" myself.. in the end, got choked on the noodles. =P

Anyway.. went taka with crystal after tt. There's this big teddy bear. SO CUTE. hahahaha... Eh.. kept on touching its feet, furry and soft.. hehe.

But price-wise, I'm not very certain about it, juz that maybe I can buy 30 to 50 china-imported discs with that amount of money.

Hahah... =)

This pic! =)))

Hmmm, aft which went home, slept, and went for gp tuition.

Anyway, random thoughts again.

Hahah.. so many random thoughts. But this blog serves as a pensieve. Lol.. good idea actually.

Ok.. enuff of crap.. hmmm.

Hmmm, thanks charmine for encouraging me not to give up. =) but somehow, I lack the important aspect that is very crucial. Sense of security. I dun hav, and I hav to admit.

Well said, that means that no more thoughts set aside for tt. Hahaha.. no more. Studies! -stern look- >.<

Okay.. that's all folks.

From,

Dark Lord

2006-03-31T21:34:00.000+08:00

First of all, I&R is real fun! EXcept for the intial part.. hav to wait for empty slots. Sianx.

Hmm.. ok la. Made rainbow eggs, which resulted in messy situations =S and mass producing money. HAHAHA... hmmm, sounds like wat kids play, but its really fun! =))

Secondly, I would like to thank Mr Arthur Lim.

Today marked the very meeting in which exco members will be selected.

And he said that he didn't want me to be too preoccupied with cca stuffs, knowing that I had other things to handle. Hmm.. But nonetheless, I was still appointed as the web ic. Hahah.. sounds rather lame.. but ok la.

Hmm.. he had something else for me to do.. I wonder wat's it.. maybe the cca leader award thingy?? Hahaha.. dun even noe it's enuff for my portfolio. Hmm..

Thirdly, things to ponder.

Saw rox at the ohana after the meeting, and had a chat with her. Hmmm, seriously speaking, I don wan to see anything liddat. Friends aren't friends anymore, as far as I noe, we didn't even have a single COMPLETE prata 9 outing together, and yet...

Thinking about the past, wished that things were still the same as the secondary school days.. which has proven to be rather impossible, unless time is kind enuff to heal all the wounds.

As outsiders, we certainly have no rights to criticise who's right or wrong. But why? Things have to go awry.. juz liddat.

Most reactions in nature tend to go in a direction that increases disorder. What bout human relationships? I dun noe. For now, I juz hope for the well-beings of my family and friends, my results, my aspirations, and nothing more.

Die Energie der Welt ist konstant, die Entropie der Welt strebt einem Maximum zu.

This is the summarisation of the theory, that eventually explains the increasing disorder of chemical reactions.

What bout human relationships???

I still hope Prata 9 is still prata 9.

Anyway rox, u look better when u tie up ur hair, (if u do read my blog rite?) =)

From,
Dark Lord

2006-03-28T21:20:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. decide to blog about today, which I find it rather meaningful.

After today's pe, we decided to try out standing broad jump. Gordon tried to jump beyond the 230cm mark but to no avail, even with alex's "formula" or watsoever. I decided to experiment it out.

I placed my bag on the 220 mark and challenged Gordon to leap across my bag.

He did it. 230cm.

Wat does this show???

In whatever we do, there will be a psychological barrier, that deters us from getting to our goal. It is very similar to reality, where there will always be friction whenever u exert a force to push or pull. However, even though we can't eliminate this barrier, we can use them to help us succumb it, and be more confident in ourselves.

Just like my Puma bag. It serves as a ladder to climb over the psychological barrier.

But that's not enough. U need the strength. The strength is derived from ur heart, ur inner voice, saying " I can do it! And I will! "

And u will do it.

I tried that for my f-maths SHM questions today. I actually issued myself a deal to complete the questions without leaving a lot of blanks (as usual). I succeeded in doing so, with only minor parts of 2 of 4 questions I'm pretty unsure of. The rest??? I did it. All by myself.

I am the Kaiser, that does not fear anything. Confident, valiant, not a weakling.

Never a weakling again.

AAAAAAAA

This is the number of As I will achieve.
Barrier? Over and under confidence.
Strength and ladder? For my loved ones, and for myself, and my future.

Last but not the least. My inner voice.

I can do it. And I will.

From,
Dark Kaiser

2006-02-27T19:47:00.000+08:00

Wth... My blog template juz got screwed up. The url for the tagboard is gone.. luckily I've got a backup. =S

Well, anyway, I've got nth really much to tag today. My "high" period is over.

Update soon though...

From,
Dark Lord

2006-01-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

Long time no blog.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!! HAHAAHA... >.<

Hmmm, shan't blog for quite a while aft today. Lol... =)

Maybe. See first la. But for now? Enjoy while u can in the chicky year.

-Woof-

From,
Dark Lord

2006-01-09T18:49:00.000+08:00

Orientation is over. Fun, fun and more fun. =) It was rather a pity that I didn't spend the 2nd and 4th day with my og mates. =S I would like to thank a lot of ppl who helped me one way or another.

To Kerrin, Qicai and Vincent, thanks for guiding me and tolerating the fact that I hav to leave early on two out of four orientation days. And also, my muddle-headness at times. Especially in counting money during the first day of orientation? =X

To zhenzhen, thanks lots and lots and lots!!! Without u, I think my voice will be very sore by now. Thank you for ur care and concern, and also ur honey drink supplied every day for me! =)) U are like my mom. =X Oops. Haha.

To Vithiya, thanks for ur help when I'm not with my OG. I noe zhen^2 wouldn't be able to cope without u. And well, last but not the least, OG members!!! Without u guys, orientation will not be a huge success! And thanks thanks LOTS for making me feel like an emperor in Causeway point Seoul Garden! =))

Matsu u rocks! =) That's all I hav to say. The campfire's nice, the OG's not that enthu O.o but yet, managed to bring out its liveliness on the last day... =D And last but not the least, I can say that I do not regret joining the big family of Novitas. Madeira shall always be part of me... =)

My "first" day of school was rather hectic, becos I had to catch up with my school stuff. Jingguo was not present, and hence lack liveliness... Sigh. Pon kia. Hahaha. And I'm going to drop dead soon. Damn. 2 Lectures per week, and I feel like ponning the tuesday one. Mrs Tan mentioned that I cannot miss the mass civics on tues, and yet it clashes with the lecture in NUS. Freak siah.

That's it. I've done wat I've to do. It's up to the upper hand to decide on my fate? (eh... that doesn't really sound like me. Becos I don believe in letting my fate manipulated. =X)

Hectic... hectic and more hectic. I chose this path. And I hav to say I do not regret it. Indeed. It will be an enriching experience for me, at the expense of my com time. =S

From,
Dark Lord

2006-01-02T16:34:00.000+08:00

Tomoro, I will start my day as a OGL. =)

OGL, this term was really strange and seemed a little obscene to me when I first came NJ. But things were not as bad as it seems, they were real nice ppl, taking good care of us, and even accepted our invitations to various cls gatherings and etc...

Even till now, when I'm in AJ going to be part of the j2 family, I still keep in contact with them, well (one actually). Huiyang.

I dun hav any good impressions about my school seniors, especially what they did to me during my NCC days. It was him who changed my perspective. Although I'm still a little phobic facing school seniors while toking to them, I'm grateful that things turned out the way I always hoped for.

Huiyang is a responsible ogl, who really cared for our welfare. At the same time, he always, without fail, mingles with us very well like ga1 gi3 nan1 (part of the family). He's horny and sicko (as wat jiahui has mentioned in her blog) at times, but I like him nonetheless. Haha... And y I wanted to be ogl?

It's mostly becos of him. I set him as my good example. -salute-

Thank u Huiyang. Being an ogl isn't easy, and u did it. I will.. for the sake of myself, for the sake of u. =)
Huiyang u are my role model. =)

Just finished my homework. Phew. =D

From,
D6rk Kaiser

2006-01-01T22:37:00.000+08:00

2005 has passed. Here comes 2006. To me, nothing is significant except the goals and new year resolutions that I've set for this year.

In 2005, I stepped my foot in NJ for the 1st 3 mths. Unfamiliar with the surroundings there, I made friends there, little did I know that some of them will become my great buddies, always there to crap with me on msn, and going out occasionally (occasionally??? -wondering-) I felt like a lone kid over there, and it was them who pulled me up from my abyss. And I was grateful to them.

Of course, all of us got separated after that period... which I had sort of regretted, taking it for granted. I went aj, knowing that everything can never be the same again. And also, it was near my house. I got to noe good buddies there too, but the feeling I had in NJ was nv there... the unique feeling. Haha... no use pondering about it. At least, I still can feel it now.

Of course, ppl may hav asked me, y did I go nj instead of aj? At tt time, there were some unpleasant memories, too much for me to bear, and I dun feel like elaborating now. But ever since then, I noe I could nv be the same old James again. The one in zhss, sometimes playing afool, and being childish and in a jovial mood. NJ provided a place for me to "escape" from my old memories. But more importantly, I felt a certain degree of closeness in NJ, and I was certain that I will go there, somehow sensing that my turning point takes place there.

And it somehow did. I truely grew up. To some extent, I became more serious, and less hot-headed in dealing with problems.

I dun believe in not able to control ur fate, but I believe in fate. If I had not gone to NJ, I will not be able to meet such good friends, and also someone. I rmbered that when I first went to crash hc, I was damn tired tt I sat on the bench, head lying on the table, and I sort of drooled unintentionally. zZzZzZzZzZ =P And when I woke up, startled to see the puddle on the table, I sort of panicked, wiping the bench with my handkerchief, and yet at the same time pretending I was only half-asleep. And if I was rite, she was sitting opposite me. (Hope she's not reading this part of the entry now. =S)

If I had chosen aj for my first choice in the 1st 3 mths, will I still be the same me now? I am certain of the ans.

No.

After the 1st 3 mths, AJ proved to be more challenging than wat I expected. Hidden dragons all around the sch... And I faced my crushing defeat in my mid-year. But I was very determined not to bow my head to failure, and I succeeded in promos. Mere.

This year, I shall improve and step towards my goal, no matter how hard it takes. Becos I believe in my ability! Secondly, I will find back my lost past, memories, and my old jovial self... It doesn't matter whether u guys understand wat I'm saying here. I understand. Period. Well, should I?

As wat Arthur Lim has mentioned in his email for us, u muz let go of everything including urself in wadeva u do. And yes! I will.

Looking back to 2005, I juz realise that my tao2 hua1 yun4 was a total screw up for that particular year. I had been muddle-headed and screwed. Nth much to say bout tt.

But I finally noe who I should really really cherish, not only my family... And I will do tt from the first day of 2006 onwards.

Be4 I end my note, happy new year.

From,
D6rk Kaiser

Back to Dark Lord. Didn't really hav the mood these few days, due to the mountains of hw I had to clear... in terms of quality, in which u hav to screw ur brains up for brain juice in order to attempt the questions. Sl was fun, but some of the kids were like eh. Okay... I luv Guo Xiong! Haha... he's really like a typical Singaporean kid, like the young me, hype and lively, but not to the extent that he or she will go around and wreck things and creating havoc. Some of the kids though, especially Yong Xiang and Er yang, were really unenthu in playing games, and some commenting the games as childish, when ironically, we enjoyed such games during orientations.

.......

I've nv met a primary 3 kid that spews vulgarities and insulting student helpers.

And I really manage to exercise my 1 week worth of workout when I helped out on that day. Chasing them and carrying them back to their room, when they attempt to run away and play hid-and-seek with us.

But overall it was quite okay. Sort of enjoyed it. Haha...

Watched Narnia with e7 friends. Nice show.. haha.. Intended to watch the 130 show, and eventually dragged till 3, due to long queue. Hmm, the guys went arcade to watch futile attempts by ppl to get soft toys from the machine. Haha.. there's this guy, think he spent about $20 over bucks on that single day. Crazy. But who cares? It's his money, not ours. So we watched him, slotting in coins like no one's business, and trying to get one single donald duck soft toy into the hole. It looked real easy, but it is not. =S

Well, the girls went Swensen's to hav their taste buds pampered. Lol.

That's all! I will blog about today tml!

From,
Dark Lord

2005-12-29T22:59:00.000+08:00

I think I'm getting more and more of a bitter person.

Only I noe y, and I dun feel like speaking about it anymore. Hmmm... Juz cherish wat I hav now.. Make the best out of it. Thinking of these only hinders my progress.

And the problem is, I keep on thinking such nonsensical stuffs every now and then.

That's wat deters me from performing. Shit 'em all...

AHHHHH!!!

(Anyway I'll blog about my "sl" tml.. Fun, but tiring too. =)))

From,
Dark Lord

2005-12-28T20:08:00.001+08:00

Hmmm.. Today's ogl refresher's course. Sianx. Re-played some of the games, and new games. All of us were like off-form. Shagged... Then here comes all the talks and protocols. Wth... Dragged until 6.

Cool.. my cousin's in terra! And wenzhao's in MADEIRA!!! WOOHOO!!! I saw yy's bro's name too! Haha.. Abit excited bout this, hmmm, decided to keep this a surprise from wz. And in case u all didn't noe, I'm from Madeira. =)))

Madeira rocks! WooHOO!!

Hmmm, wat I did yesterday huh? eh.. think nth much. Stayed at home, and harvest mould.

Lol.

Christmas party on boxing day was fun! =)

From,
Dark Lord

2005-12-25T09:36:00.000+08:00

Melly Klistmas to all!!! =D

Yesterday's xmas eve was fun! Me and guohao intended to go swimming at 9. Then I was late.. =P (oops.) wanted to go yy's hse to swim... free wat. Then she was uncontactable. No choice, met up at Bishan mrt to swim. Rather.. To chat. =P

About noon, we went j8 for lunch, and wanted to go back. In the end, we went to Jurong East to visit City Harvest church.. where I heard from guohao that there's caroling and celebration going on. Sounds damn fun.. Hahha.. On the way to the church, some incident on the bus occurred. There's some naughty kid pressing on the bell a few times, and this bus driver scolded them. In the end, the father got very angry, and almost wanted to fight with the bus driver as a result. Luckily we were alighted juz opposite the church, but stayed near the vicinity to watch the "show".

The police were alerted as a result, and well, blah blah blah... all goes well. To summarise... Me and guohao think that the father's at fault. As wat guohao had said, " pampering the kids too much..."

Went to the church. Some bird sh** missed us by inches juz be4 we went in. Heard this piah sound... Loll...

Wat a bummer when we went in to check out. The venue for the celebrations and stuff has been shifted to expo. O.O from the very west to the very east of Singapore... No way. =S

Bobian.. went home lor. Haha.. Started to rain heavily. Real heavily. The roads were flooded to almost knee-deep in some areas... but nice la. I like such weather.. cooling. =P

Took bus home... Long journey... *Yawn*

Went home and wanted to go for jc cls outing. Turned out that they are going home soon. =S

Played mahjong at my cousin's house! Lol... First time playing with money. 10 cents per winning though. -_- Haha...

Well, be4 I'm going off.. Santa, I've been good this year, can I hav a 6111 pls??? =))

Hahahha... Merry Christmas to all then!!!

Land Ahoy,
Dark Lord

2005-12-22T22:03:00.000+08:00

Top: Great Wall of China!!! Haha... I took it.. Nice rite?? =D
Middle: Gordon and Junzhe!
Bottom: Me in TCHS shirt! =))

Haha.. nth to do recently. Stagnant life. =S

From,
Dark Lord

2005-12-21T20:06:00.000+08:00

In a game of mahjong... U nv noe who's gonna win until the very last round.

Limitless possibilities on the assortment of tiles u gonna get, and indeed there are cases where u hav to take a gamble to forsake one tile, only to realise at times that u are getting back another tile of the same kind. This depends on luck.

However, the combination u're forming depends on ur hands. Regardless on how bad or how good the kind of tiles u have gotten. What's more important is that good combination of tiles doesn't ensure u a victory.

The key to winning is... analyse the situation well, and ensure that u are on the "ting pai" stage be4 3 to 5 turns. That ensures u a high chance to victory, and allow me to repeat, HIGH CHANCE IN LEADING U TO VICTORY... not 100% success. =)

Playing mahjong for 3 consecutive afternoons in my aunt's house has made me realise this. The theory of mahjong is rather similar to ur fate. U can decide the path u are going and control ur fate, to lead u to success, even though u are not able to take charge of the circumstances around u. And I'm gonna use this theory to lead me to success.

Yes..

The Mahjong Theory:

-There's nothing u can do with the circumstances around u, but u can make use of these circumstances to aid u to where u wanna go.

-There are ppl in ur path who is bound to hinder u to success, e.g. getting ur tiles, and there are also bound to hav ppl acting as catalysts to help u along ur way too.

-Luck only plays a minor factor in ur life. However, in critical situations, luck does play a significant role. Hmm, hav u ever noticed it in ur real life???

-U own the very ability to change ur direction on where u are going! It only depends on whether u are willing to change the tiles u hav now. Time is precious though, change it while there's still an opportunity! =)

From,
Dark Lord

2005-12-19T19:16:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... nth much to blog, juz tt i enjoyed yesterday's rc christmas party, juz tt its a bit the.. boring. Lol..

Hmmm, back to my Beijing Talk again.

Haha... Indeed, we encountered freak incidents over there. Hmm, I remembered during the 3rd day after dinner, and when we were proceeding back to our bus, some of us suggested to view the river nearby that has turned into ice. Lol... And over there, to our surprise, there was this guy who openly peed onto the river, not realising that we were staring and laughing madly.... =D

Think that the guy juz looked at us and walked away.

Lol...

Hmmm, back to mugging again. Think I needa catch up with my maths and physics stuff be4 sch reopens. =S

From,
Dark Lord

2005-12-16T08:17:00.000+08:00

Well... I'm finally back from Beijing.

I miss Singapore, but Beijing is really fun, except that the wind there is real chilly. And I mean it... =S End up some of us hugging for warmth in the public. Hahaha...

Hmmm, I shan't elaborate on wat we did on each day, rather tedious. ZzZzZz... (just came back from airport)

Did a lot of shopping rather. Bought 4 pairs of shoes, and souvenirs for mom and dad and clsmates.. haha... I find it fun to bargain. Speaking of hagging of prices, it is really essential in countries, especially like China, where there are bound to be ppl trying to scam u of ur money. Xavier seemed to be an expert in bargaining, but in the end got conned. Hahahaha.... Funny man.. Bought snickers on the second day during shopping time, and in the end realised that some of the bball members were buying pairs of snickers at half price later on... =D

Hmmm... but still, he's my mentor la... Without him, I will be conned.

Btw some of the designs there are real nice... But too ex, and the ppl there are really really really reluctant to cut the prices.

Disclaimer: The shoes there in which u can bargain for are fakes. Those who prefer orginality... Haha.. Sry. =P

Food there is marvellous too... Except on the fourth day, where 7 out of the 8-course dishes are veggie based. =S

My first time trying out smelly tofu, and bbq cocoons. Hmmm, the tofu indeed smells quite weird, but I like the taste, especially with the seasoning. I wanted to try the fried scorpions too, but it looked really scary with the tail. =S

Haha...

Training was practically every day, except on the first day. Not really tiring, but it was %^&*cold. The indoor court was really freezing, bout 10 plus C. as there was no heater to warm the whole place. And we had to train in a single t-shirt with a jersey. Wth... But still, we endured. =)

I didn't participate in any of the matches organised. Filmed every match with Alfred. The bball teams from China is indeed really strong...

Toilets in Beijing really stinks. XP Was wondering how on earth can Beijing cope with 2008 Olympics, especially when there's not much good toilets around.

Hmmm, too tired to type liao. Shall elaborate further later. =)

From,
Dark Lord

2005-12-03T18:46:00.000+08:00

I think I will not be touching any tutorials for some time.

Haha... A form of destress.

The moment my urge to complete and compete will be the time d6rk kaiser returns. (Holiday-cum-destress mood now.)

I'm juz too stressed. Burned-out. =S

I'll not disappoint anyone.. I promise.

From,
Dark Lord

2005-12-02T23:37:00.000+08:00

Life gets a little dull now... Hmm, dunno y. Maybe becos I needa rush all my tutorials be4 the trip to beijing. =S

Dun bother me. I bite sometimes. =X

Where did D6rk Kaiser go?

From,
Dark Lord

2005-12-01T17:28:00.000+08:00

Reformatted my com juz now. Sianx.

All becos of 2 trojan horses.

!@#$%^

From,
Dark Lord

2005-11-30T11:41:00.000+08:00

Let's start the story (blog) from the chalet.

Hmm, went there, only to realise that there is no bbq on that day. (The day be4) Sianx. Luckily I settled my dinner with Prata gang at s11, =) and well, we booked into the chalet. After that went for walk with all of them. Junzhe suggested walking towards ECP, however in the end, none of us wanted to go there, cos we were too shagged. ZM and JC went back, while the rest went cheers to get our stuffs.

Went back. Played PS2 for a while. GTA san andreas is totally cool! Ended up being sadists killing each and everyone in our sights. X) HAHA... Slept at 4 plus.

The next morning.. I had to go home to visit my mom, cos she was ill, while the rest went ubin. Had breakfast at Yakun be4 going home, (for the rest: going ubin)

Went back at around 6 plus for BBQ. Sianx it was raining.. anyway Gordon's really pro at starting fire. =)

Went home with the majority at around 9 plus... Home sweet home..

Didn't go for bball training. TOo ShaGged... =S

From,
Dark Lord

2005-11-28T12:27:00.000+08:00

Blogging now.

Just went ICA to extend passport. No wonder there are surveys and reports indicating that service industry in Singapore in one of the worst in the world. Dun mention it liao. Anyway, forgot to bring ic, in the end had to ask mom to bring for me. =S

Forgot that today got bball training, until rx called me, asking me why I didn't attend the session.

Later watching movie, despite objections, and after which I'm heading to the chalet.

That's all for today.

From,
Dark Lord