Sunday, March 25, 2007
Hmm. Why hav I become so not confident in myself?
I dun remember being liddat when I took up the advanced placement programme in NUS, knowing that I had to cope with my module, my schoolwork, and the consistent sarcasm of my beloved fmB teacher =) I remembered failing to do his mech tutorials, and failing every single little test given, or maybe borderline pass. Or even stoning in his class and kenna sarca & threatened by him.. that he will talk to the principal to terminate my APP.
I remembered I was swearing under my breath when he said that. I will never sacrifice my love for chemistry, in order to salvage my fmaths. Never.
I persisted. I got A- for my module. I got A for fmaths during A levels.
Now? I kenna OCS, and I'm having thoughts that I'll get kicked out?
Haha, where on earth did my courage and determination go???
Did I think of that when I was rushing lab assignments for NUS till midnight, knowing that I will be damn tired the next day when I go school? Or when I had to skip lessons in order to attend lectures and lab sessions?
My answer was clear. No.
Now y?
I thought it over. The path ahead is full of uncertainty. But no matter what, I'm not going to give up that easily. Even with that persistent chronic cough I'm currently having now. My aunt is correct. Not many hav the chance like me, and here am I thinking of giving up. My uncle got into OCS, and he got the sword.
Y can't I when I haven't even tried? The pressure is there, but is it alot compared to the times during APP? I can guarantee... not much difference.
So why the hell should I think of giving up? I should aim for the best instead. Who cares who's my competitor? I will fight all my way through. At least I know I hav a considerable chance to succeed if I persist.
Here I go, OCS. =D
Form your resolve. Charge
forward. Leave no regrets.
12:17 PM
Saturday, March 24, 2007
It was really unexpected. I missed 24km route march, SOC, and grenade throwing test. I don't think I was very enthusiastic in my platoon, cos I dun like wayang-ing. My SIT test was a little screwed up because I wrote some stupid ideas in the assignment (on coming up with an idea to save hostage =S)
Plus point? I got silver for IPPT (not really a plus point) and that's all.
I was very surprised and happy when I saw the posting results yesterday.
OCS. =D
I'm currently coughing now, though the condition has improved.
Hmm, since I'm meant for this path, then I will walk this path till its very end.
I dun wanna say I'm giving up now... I will hold on. =)
Form your resolve. Charge
forward. Leave no regrets.
11:00 AM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
First scholarship interview, with IE via firefly.
Screwed it up. Lol. I wasn't really disappointed. Well, at least it is an experience for me. Lol. Not as bad as I think, cos it was like one-to-one. But the questions that actually stunned me were something like, "talk about a scenario when u actually thought of something creative." >.<, or "Singapore expects that there will be 1M singaporeans aged 65 yrs and abv in 2015, discuss its impact to Singapore's economy."
HAHAHA... That's damn ss la. Sigh. Nvm...
So this is how it goes. Well, went Paya Lebar to hav my med checkup. Had my pneumonia condition cleared. Still feeling a bit urgh. =S But all cleared! =) However, waiting time is abit the long. (Well, waited 20 mins for nth. >.<) Haha... Now back. Probably go catch some sleep lol. Woke up too early today. ZzZzZz...
From,
Kaiser
Form your resolve. Charge
forward. Leave no regrets.
12:18 PM
Friday, March 16, 2007
-She can be a little bullying at times, but that's what I like about her. =)-
Anyway yesterday was a fun and enjoyable day for me, until that fateful phone call.
"Hello, is it James Chia? Eh, you needa re-do the FFI. It's not complete. Please be at the SFT by 8.15am tomorrow. The ferry will leave at 8.30. Attire's smart four, please bring ur admin attire and pt shoes."
I just started ordering songs, with Jiahui, Stinkie and Crystal at cine kbox, happily teasing stinkie with the song jh and crystal ordered specially for me.
Shocked and outraged, I made the call back to the number. The phone indicated number error, which means I couldn't call back to ask what the hell has happened to my previous FFI results. Damn. I cursed under my breath. My PT shoes' with jianlong, and I'm totally not prepared. I could only curse at that point of time. No mood. Totally no mood to sing.
Sorry, jh stinkie and crystal. If any of u 3 sees my blog entry(except stinkie), pls accept my apology for that fateful day.
I explained my scenario to them, and hurried off, back to I was supposed to be. Changing Appetites, to find jianlong. I actually asked zuhao for help, juz in case. Called back company, and the person mentioned that its ok not to wear pt shoes, if u got valid reason. Fine. That's great. My mood didn't really come back though. The thought of going back to tekong for half an hour of FFI test makes me sick. I could just sleep for another 2 hrs and they're gonna rob it, and my $15 bucks of taxi fare. I would rather spend it kboxing with my nakamas, which is much much^(0/0) more worth it. (zero divide by zero)
That's sianx. The army guys went dotaing. I went back home. To pack my stuff. Lousy feeling. My dad said its ok. My heart sorta went up a little. But I was still a bit sianx.
Next morning...
I woke up. Before I realise I had to go tekong. Cursed again.
Ok. Fine. Ate breakfast, went there, 17 bucks taxi fare. (Cursed again)
Luckily I'm not alone. Platoon 3 Sect 1 also kenna screwed up FFI. Ok. Back to tekong. Back to Leopard Company. (My prayers were answered?) Hahaha... Well, last friday's not my last day in leopard company. Well, cs tan and leonard were there. Leonard was alittle surprised to see me. Anyway, did a bit of saigang, be4 we went for the test. Half an hour. We finished everything, expected. Went canteen to eat, be4 going back. =) (Anyway Leonard's in a damn good mood today. Lol. =))
Went to meet jianlong for shoes. He was going bugis anyway. So chatted abit. I went novena find rw, who is slogging everyday in mph. For lunch =)
Anyway come to think of it now, I'm much more fortunate compared to those doing guard duty on sunday. =S
From,
Kaiser
Form your resolve. Charge
forward. Leave no regrets.
8:45 PM
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Single Degree:
1. Chemical Engineering
2. Materials Science & Engineering
3. Environmental Engineering
4. Science (Chemistry!)
Double Degree:
1. Engineering + Econs
2. Engineering + Business
Well, karin's gonna be my senior, if we get to the same ddp! =D
Hehehe... At least I got someone to teach me if I dun noe anything. Lol...
Form your resolve. Charge
forward. Leave no regrets.
9:10 AM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
I've decided my path... Well, at least I wun be swayed by others' comments. At least, I walked the path I chose, I wun regret. I decided to go for ddp and usp, which some may find it urgh. But still, I think I've led a unfulfilling life in jc, frankly speaking. If given a chance again, I wanna chiong suah. And uni, may probably be the last time I get to chiong suah. Although life in uni will be busy, I believe I can derive a sense of happiness, and also a great sense of achievement when I graduate. =)
Now planning to write usp essay and also slacking along the way, talking to stella, who's working now. Lol... Poor girl, has to wake up early every weekday to go chai chee to work. Hahhaa.. Aww well. Good luck!
Hmm, currently doing nothing much now. So got plenty of time to blog. Wanted to blog, but when I reach here, my hands couldn't do anything much to the keyboard. Aww well. Writer's block. Hehe...
Form your resolve. Charge
forward. Leave no regrets.
10:48 AM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Many things to blog.
It has been a long time since I blogged. Well, let's start from 'A' results. Haha, rather happy with my results, though there are 2 subjects falling short of my expectations, mainly maths 's' and gp. But still, falling short by a little bit only. Planning to go for NUS, NTU, PSC and ExxonMobil scholarships. Probably Sembcorp. See first lor. (Hahahaa... my friends were saying that sembcorp is often related to dao4 la1 ji1) =P
But more importantly, I can go to the course I want! =) Chemical Engineering. Hehe...
Trying out double degree, but a bit lost, as in not sure whether to choose chem eng with econs or business. Well, rw I noe what u are trying to say, but still, I think being ambitious is still a good thing. At least I survived.. =)
Hmmm. I unofficially POPed last thursday. Got slight pneumonia. Should I say I'm lucky or not? Lucky is that becos I went for the RSAF medical interview, and they scanned infection of my left lung. Wrote letter of recommendation to MO in tekong, diagnosed me of pneumonia. Then att c for 7 days, and POP ends be4 I finish att C.
It was a happy-sad moment. It was the last day I'll be in tekong. (well, I stayed overnite be4 I left, cos got admin stuff to settle.)
I almost cried... but held back my tears. Well, I wouldn't miss my bunkmates cos I can still contact them. =P But I will miss my bunk, my bed and my cupboard, where I pasted the photo that motivated me along during my last few weeks in tekong. Memories of tekong and Leopard company, both good and bad. I will always remember, or at least try to. ='(
Thanks Musttafa, for being a good buddy, and sharing your thoughts and secrets with me, which I will keep it in my heart.
Thanks Leslie, for being a good SIT test buddy, and able to withstand my chronic coughing at nite, and also waking u up to go toilet in SBO form.
Thanks to those who gave me good memories, I will nv forget u all. =D
Oh yeah, did I forget the unlucky part? It is that I can't really leave my own house. Urgh. Quarantined. Can't go to any open hses. Damn sianx. And also, I can't even attend their POP ceremony. NOOOOOO......
Well, I'm now at home. Doing all the essays and applications to uni. Otherwise, I'll be doing nothing, or popping cocktails of medicine after meals. Well, that will be my routine for the next 4 days? =S
Form your resolve. Charge
forward. Leave no regrets.
10:23 AM
