Friday, December 28, 2007
Things just got a little more interesting in camp =)
Well, let's see how it goes. And I don't really feel anything much anymore. I've got nothing much to lose, neither do I care about whatever will happen to me if I were to retaliate. =D So be it. Give me your best shot, and I will give mine.
I realised that I've changed some more during these past few months. In the past, when I was still in training, I realised that I was a person who is happy with anything, and even if things were against me, I would never fight back, naively thinking that sheer determination will put me through.
Ha. It's all bullshit. But now? At least I gain some experience from this 1 year. I've grown stronger, not only physically, but mentally too. I also learnt to be braver, and more hardy. No one can ever think that I'm some person who is easily bullied. No one. Ever and ever...
Form your resolve. Charge
forward. Leave no regrets.
9:49 PM
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Kbox with jiahui and crystal. Went jiahui's hse for extended kbox lol =D Quite fun I must say. Got rather high due to singing. Hehe... It's really enjoyable, and i really hope to hav such an occasion again. =) Plays really well I must say!
Guard duty on xmas. Abit sianx.. but got rather fun eventually. There's this corporal from SMTI who was surfing this website to get to know indian girls... (his name was roshan >.< not the DOTA one) and some of us chipped in suggestions on how to get the girls' contact no. (yes, including me, though I had to do my duty with Thomas heh)
That day each of us got $7 extra( for ordering food, i.e. pizza, Macs etc.) so me and thomas ordered pizza and shared it among the camp personnel. Cool... =D Somehow this xmas's rather special...
Brought some magz to read, but eventually went to watch Bourne Ultimatium and Shrek 3. Hahaha...
That's y doing guard duty is sometimes an enjoyable thing. =) Although BHChua toks alot crap and sidetrack a great deal. Sigh... It's real hard to keep awake while 'listening' to him talking about the importance of doing gd duty.. YAWN...
Stupid shit. Do duty do duty lor. Talk soooo much for wad? As if u do a good job for this will get promote. =)
Watched deal or no deal just now. There's this guy who got a $36,000 offer to get rid of the box (no.15) with only $150, $750 and $150k available. And he rejected the offer. What he got? $150.
Stupid. I got quite fed up that I turned to my com and played warbook. -.-'
Form your resolve. Charge
forward. Leave no regrets.
10:06 PM
Saturday, December 01, 2007
I just realised that I haven't been blogging for a long long while. (as in serious blogging.)
Alot of things happened these few months. I was once brought to the top of my 'career', and gradually dragged to nothing. Everything just happened real fast... and before you know it, you realise that you are not joining the rest and you are in a no man's land, together with some, who suffered the same fate as me.
But, no. I'm not going to hide in one corner and cry like a little kid. No way I'm gonna accept my fate, and the verdict. That I'm a weakling under stress... Still remembered only yesterday when some of us were supposed to help out in IPPT test for regulars. I saw some of my instructors who were involved in the test. One fell out during 2.4km run. He even vomitted.. All show the tired face that which if we showed during our old training days, they themselves will screw us upside down. Timing for them's really slow...
I couldn't help but sneer at them deep down in my heart. Are they the very same instructors that shouted at us "DON'T SHOW THAT SHAGGED FACE TO ME!"? Hahahaha...
Sorry about tt, but you guys are despised. Not fit at all.. aww.
Can't believe what I saw. But still.. wahahaha. Can't help but to laugh whenever I think of what happened that day. Losers... I also learnt something throughout the whole experience. Determination and fighting spirit won't bring you through. It's all bullshit.. But still I'm not gonna give up anytime soon. I'm just lack the quality of being streetsmart. I learnt it finally. The hard way..
I admit I'm not really qualifed. But the thing is that some who are not as qualified, or even worse off, get to pass and graduate scot-free, I must say.
That day, at 15 1741, I do hope that it rains. Heavily.
I admire those who braved through the whole damn shit together with me. I salute them.. In fact, they deserve it more than those ppl do. Joshua.. Kannan... They sacrificed. But their fighting spirit remains on throughout, as far as I know.
Anyway, back to something more cheerful.
I'm going for the ACCA course. Basically it's a accountancy course, in which once you complete, you will become a certified public accountant. =D It will take around 2-3 years to do so, but it will be worth it. I do hope I can get a 8-5 vocation though.. One more week before I get to know my new posting. I'm also going for Aikido course too! Heh, that will be exciting I would say, but still deciding where's the venue, cos all seemed so far from where my place is... =S (though most are quite accessible)
I can't wait to go uni though! =D (I'm very sure most of the girls won't agree right now, especially the fact that they are coping with the ongoing exams right NOW) Being able to study and back to freedom.. And also joining different CCAs and sports activities (provided that you have enough time...) Cool!
I can't wait to get out soon... Still got slightly less than a year to go. But that one year seems real long... Urgh. Anyway currently I'm 'posted' to this com lab where the ppl there are real nice.. joking too! Haha... LC was telling me when I first got there, "This is when the real thing starts. =)" It now makes real sense to me.
But initially when I got there I got a culture shock. Everything seemed so slack, too slack for me. Even the officers are joking and playing with us every now and then. (Probably beacause I was in the discipline-mode during the 11 months =S) Anyway I got a new pet in where I am now. =D
This pikachu soft toy. Haha.. can't help but put it on top of my monitor whenever I'm doing my typing. =)) (Poor thing, sometimes being kicked around by them every now and then lol)
The end has come. And every ending has a new beginning in place for you. And how the path is shaped depends on your every single decision.
Form your resolve. Charge
forward. Leave no regrets.
6:43 PM
